When I'm first going back to work after a period of absence I've learned to class them as "burner-jobs". Meaning I'm about to get fired a bunch (or quit a lot, or both).
Why? Because I'm having to relearn how to ...do a lot of things*. Which means I'm going to be f*cking up left, front, and center. Which means I'm going to get fired. Or I'm going to be taking jobs I "shouldn't" & end up quitting (aka there are warning signs all over the place that this is a bad job for me, but I either don't see them, or don't care, or have gotten all stubborn/desperate, or just need money now).
(Going to be fired, or quit, & f*cking up) AND That I don't care. Neither about being fired, nor about quitting, nor what lead to either. I used to care, before I started classing these jobs/this period of my life as "burner jobs". I used to care deeply. As much as I still do care about losing any other kind of job. So why don't I care about these? Because the purpose of them is different from every single other form of employment. The purpose of them is to learn.
- How to choose a job that I'm a good fit for AND that I'll like.
- How to manage my stress with the addition of the job
- How to manage my symptoms with the addition of the job
- How to interact with others
- How to react/respond to a variety of situations
- What battles to choose
- What standards to accept
- What challenges to set myself at
- Et Cetera (in a major way. There's a lot of learning I have to do & redo)
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So coming from that standpoint?
CONGRATULATIONS!!! :D
How f*cking awesome is it that you challenged yourself to work a job, learned a whole helluva lot of things about yourself and about what you want IN a job (especially including what you want in coworkers, and culture), discovered one place where where you draw the line AND recognized an overreaction, still stood up for yourself, are cognizant that there some mutual blame & are neither taking it all on yourself (aka there's justifiable anger to being screwed over, which you had, but your response/reaction with your anger isn't how you would best like to react/respond in the future: Yay! Learning :)) nor are you shifting it all off on others. Well done! Truly.
That you lost the job? Pfft. IMO doesn't really matter, as that's a management decision that could have gone either way. Some managers would have been "So&So was justifiably pissed off & had a bit of a tantrum over it. That happens." Others go "So&So was justifiably pissed off & had a bit of a tantrum over it. That's not allowed to happen." Totally depends on the type of job & the people making the decisions & is out of your hands.
You challenged yourself. You accomplished a lot. You learned a lot. Well done. :D I'm excited to see where you'll go next. What new challenges you're going to present yourself, and new lessons learnt.
