Madness, Insanity & The World Wide Web

[Muzikluvr]

I've been learning about what Steve Jobs says in this video... it's not easy to embrace it, because, sometimes, it seems easier to hibernate instead of making waves. But, I certainly understand where he's coming from; the joy, the freedom that comes from understanding that I am powerful in my own life, and in the lives of others. Maybe I can't predict all that will come from my choices, but I know I can create positives in my own life, and those lives around me. This understanding is in part due to conversations which we've had here on your forum. Thanks, Anthony, for being here.

 

[anthony]

Someone asked me for my Skype address yesterday, and I kindly told them, no thanks. They asked, why? So I told them I have been there, done that, and I really don't like coming onto my computer and being bombarded with the global version of text messages awaiting me, let alone people seeing me come onto my computer and then calling through for video chats and such.

Its stressful, annoying, and again... been there, done it, and it took up my life and I got away from all those programs.

IMHO, there is such a thing as too much personal contact. Sure, I've had fun with those things and some late nights chatting, no doubt about it. Met some good people face to face, but the reality is that they ate into my days, and nights, and I ended up suffering from this feeling of having to make myself available to people who I don't really know, but know via being online only. Acquaintances, not friends...

Chances are, if you're not in my phone address book, I won't answer the call either. I don't know you, the caller, I'm not expecting any call for a delivery or something I've enacted, na da... so no answer chances are.

I'm not sure whether I upset the person or not, but my decisions are my decisions, my life is my life, and I don't owe anyone else anything, such as having to have them in a Skype list or such, let alone knowing my actual Skype details.

I've done MSN Chat, ICQ, Skype, Google Talk, and on and on the list goes... all ended the same, quickly and with me stressed. Talking with people is ok, healthy... but being available to mental health chit chat all the time is just insanity. Chances are, when you have people befriending you with PTSD, they want to talk PTSD at some point with you. When you have lots of people, its just a lot of stress.

So please, don't be offended if I don't answer an email, or accept such requests, because I'm not a numbers guy who needs a number telling me I have lots of friends or such. I have a couple of really good friends, who I even classify as friends, and I know them personally and have done for years. I'm honestly not interested in being Internet online buddies with strangers who eat into my days and really they just want me to solve their issues for them / be a venting board. Yuk! No thanks.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

@anthony I here you and chat is very lengthily, it takes forever to say something that it could take you 2 seconds to say in person...I have been here for years and I have one friend off the forum here. I just have learned to keep a distance here over the years.

 

[anthony]

Skype was usually more live chat... but still the same outcome, lengthy... with some nights going all night into sunrise.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I just wanted to thank you so much by your leading by example. I thank you for the privilege of being here and getting and giving back.

I understand if you want to sell it. Change is a part of life and I had no idea of all the stuff that was being asked of you.

I have learned and grown so much since being on this site. I wish you had more support so you did not have to deal with so much.

Mabe it is time for a change for you. I understand that. Mabe you have outgrown this place.

Do whatever you need to do. Thank you so much.

 

[anthony]

I'm dragging my feet this morning... I better get motivated and off to exercise I go. Later...

 

[anthony]

Ok... exercised, done my 1000 calories for the day, had my coffee... good to go. Focused... maybe if I say it again it will be true... focused... :facepalm: palm slap... anything??? :banghead::banghead::banghead: bang head a few times, ok... something's starting to fire up... here it comes... :wtf::sleep: o'well, was worth a shot.

Kidding.... time to do some reading, responding and other stuff.

 

[anthony]

Ok... now I have beer, the world is balanced once again.

 

[anthony]

Ok, new day... a little more motivated this morning for a nice 10km run to get things started, followed by a coffee to go.

 

[anthony]

Ok... bend, crack, twist... stretch a little more. My motivation is definitely lacking at the moment. The last week has been a fight with depression I think, and the only thing even closely holding it back is my exercise regime. I just want to curl up and do nothing, but I know if I do that, depression will be on me faster than a cake-eater to a cake eating buffet.

So here I am... still pondering whether to get off my arse and get exercising. I'm dressed for it, does that count? :wideeyed: :whistling:

Ok... time to finish up the week with another 5km run, easy day at things, ready for a big exercise week again. I think this will put me around 45km running for the week, let alone all the other activities I do, pumping out around 110 - 120 km's per week of exercise.

Ok... self-motivation has now kicked in... time for me to go and I'll be back later. :ninja:

 

[anthony]

Head a little wobbly this morning after a big night on the beer... some breakfast didn't really help anything, but the water bottle I'm sure will.

 

[anthony]

Back to the next day... except now I'm starting to get pretty excited about getting away for a few days to go do stupid, crazy, adrenaline fuelled stuff. I seriously can't wait for the day of skiing. I love skiing, and have missed it sooooooo much. Nothing better than coming down a mountain of snow and ice at 60+ kmh.

Still trying to get motivated to get exercising today... all my lovely plans for exercise yesterday after a big night... well... went to shit. So now I have to make up for it today and tomorrow, as I doubt I will get gym time in whilst away. Not real sure I will need it though, as the days are all going to be pretty exercise intensive.