Make it stop!

[recoveringfromptsd]

Music turned out to be the best distraction yesterday

While I was waiting to get into Sheppard Pratt Trauma Disorders Unit, I found listen to music and youtube videos of performances all consuming and it kept me safe. I found this one artist EVA Cassidy that her music was soothing to me. You might try getting more into music like I did, I sort of took it to extremes, almost to obsession. But considering that I was waiting for a bed on a trauma oriented unit, and was highly suicidal, it kept me from being forced into a non-trauma unit instead. My suggestion is try everything, and make distraction an obsession. It will at least keep you safe. You might talk with your therapist, about the possibility of going into a Trauma Based Psych Unit so they can help you manage this stuff, there are many in the USA.

Oh, and by the way, guess who my best friend is? Frozen oranges or lemons. Instant grounding when I get triggered because they are so cold. Try it out for yourself.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

The only thing I can think about when it starts is how to escape - but you can't escape your own head

Me too, recently I even considered stopping my naltrexone so I could escape by numbing with alcohol. I was told point blank what would be done if I did that. It's good that naltrexone takes over a day to get out of my system, just enough time to stop myself in better moments that follow.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

My suggestion is try everything, and make distraction an obsession. It will at least keep you safe.

THIS is GREAT advice and WELL SAID!!!

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

For those who have been following my recent struggles, I met with my T today, she is looking into having me go back to Sheppard Pratt's TDU.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

:hug::):hug: Hoping it happens...ASAP!!!

 

[JustBreathe]

How do you get the images to stop? The thoughts? I am in physical/emotional hell right now. I hurt! I can'...

Have you ever tried meditation? If not, go on YouTube and type in "Guided Meditation for stress". Find a quiet place to sit, press play on YouTube and close your eyes. Listen to the words and follow the guidance.

 

[Kay N]

I also feel this way so you're not alone, I've just self harmed, again! Really think my head is going to explode... don't know what to do with myself

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I presently feel like self harming every day, but due to the naltrexone which I was put on to curb self-harming I get nothing from self-harming as I get no numbing. In fact I found out that it is possible to override the naltrexone but to do so I have to do a lot of damage before I get any numbing and even then it is so small it leaves me wanting more. The problem with all that is it takes time. By the time getting a small amount of numbing is accomplished there is enough to get caught doing it, which would lead to being made to go to the hospital just to be safe, or in a hospital setting it would lead to being secluded or sedated or both. So in one hand the naltrexone keeps me safe by taking away the numbing from self-harm, on the other hand I have grown to hate it when I feel that I need to numb.

 

[L24]

While I was waiting to get into Sheppard Pratt Trauma Disorders Unit, I found listen to musi...

It may be worth getting yourself referred for EMDR, which is a way of processing the memory and filing it away in the brain. You will have to re-live the trauma which is completely exhausting both physically and emotionally but the results are remarkable. In the space of 2 months I'm able to think of and even talk about what happened.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

It may be worth getting yourself referred for EMDR

@L24 I have already had some EMDR, and the results were disastrous, bringing such extreme stuff where it stays quickly overwhelmed and gave me body memories which until now I never had. Currently my T is looking at having me re-admitted to Sheppard Pratt's TDU.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

@recoveringfromptsd :hug:
I am thinking of you and praying that your path to SP TDU will be a sure thing...SOON... And that you will have the same, or better results that will be long lasting! With the right treatment, you can get back on the road to your recovery and LIVING!