Man Oh Man

[sonicwhite]

last night was horrible. The dreams where all my fears I have ever had in my life all at once. Man my brain is losing it. I feel so anxious and idk whether to just try to stay up as long as I can or keep enduring these dreams. They have not diagnosed me PTSD. And I have been thru a lot of trauma but I am also a Christian that bounces back and fourth from these dreams are from the devil to God or medication to PTSD so it makes it harder for me to accept that I go thru this. I feel there is no way out. I feel I will always be oppressed. What can I do. No one here has the answer. And there really isn't anything you can do to change your dreams. Man this sucks.

 

[ladee]

Sonic, it sounds like you do accept that you go thru this.... and being afraid to sleep, I understand that part for sure..... can you, or have you, tried to get a diagnosis ? Are you on any meds right now? Sorry if I am being intrusive....but wanted you to know I read your post and hope something positive happens for you, and soon... have no magic answers, but you are HEARD...... hang in there.

 

[sonicwhite]

Yes when my last pdoc was alive he was about to dx me PTSD then he died and I got a crappier doctor and they haven't been seeing me as long as my last Doctor. They do give me a lot of medication and prazosin and AP AND AD. They also give me klonopin but it's pooping out. That's why I go back and forth about what is causing these dreams and it racks my brain. I'm trying to look for work and I'm on SSDI so I'm not ruminating all day wondering why I suffer like this but it seems as if a lot of doors have been closed and I'm just getting worse. Oh well I guess this is my lot in life.

 

[Fadeaway]

I am not a Christian, but I used to be. According to the Christian philosophy and the bible, if you have God in your life than you are protected if they are from Satan. So you can rule that out. God wouldn't be the cause of psychological distress, so you can rule that out as well. Just some food for thought.

 

[sonicwhite]

Thanks @Fadeaway

 

[ladee]

Hopefully this is not your lot in life... there will be an answer, and a way.... get assertive with your T and tell them what is going on... and maybe you need a different T.... all those meds could be part of the problem.... but don't stop taking any of them without talking to T first..... I am a christian...prayers for you some answers soon.... and have a little faith in yourself too.... you are reaching out. That speaks volumes.... hang tight man..... you are not alone.