Many Years Ago, I Was Bullied By My Family, But I Feel Like They Pretend It Didn't Happen.

[Kashi]

It was around my childhood and teen years. They would always play tricks on me because I acted mean towards them. Whenever I think of the times they bullied me, I just can't wrap my head around the idea that my own family would do this to me. But now, they're so nice, and I can't figure out how it happened. At the end of that thought process, I would always come to the same conclusion: because I stop acting like an ass toward them. And it's just this: why do I always question how everything changed when I already know the same answer? I've never talked to them about it because I don't want to upset them or anything. It's just that if I can't talk to them about it, then to whom can I?

 

[ronin47]

I think you'll find plenty of people on this forum who are going through a similar situation. Their families put them through Hell and now they refuse to acknowledge it. The Hell is made that much worse by the lack of acknowledgement. I count myself as lucky that I've gotten even a small amount of acknowledgement from my family. My parents, and especially my mother, did make a significant change in the way they treated me. Was it because I got older and became better able to handle the situation? Was it because they got older and simply mellowed out? Who knows. Just be thankful it happened.

As far as who you can talk to, do what the rest of us do. Find a therapist. It might be challenging but if you are able to find a decent one it makes the search all worth it. If not a therapist maybe try finding some friends who can relate to your situation. If you are religious maybe you can find a pastor or religious minister of some kind to discuss your feelings with. There are plenty of options. The bottom line is there is no reason for you to think there is something wrong with you because you can't discuss your feelings with your family.