Medically Discarded From RAN

[bradleyg]

Hello I am an Ex Sailor in the Royal Australian Navy (RAN) who was medically discarded because I was a case too hard to handle.

After being originally diagnosed with social anxiety then Major Depression prior to getting medically discharged in 2005 I was then diagnosed with complex PTSD from multiple traumas from my service in the RAN about 3 years ago by a psychiatrist who not only talks to me but gets a lot of information from my wife - she tells him the truth about how things are really going as there is "not much wrong with me" according to me.

I am finding it hard to come to grips with it all as I am only 40yrs old and my best friends are the local Vietnam vets who understand what I am going through. I have a young family and my kids go through hell when I am having a bad day and my wife Sam cops it as well. I,at times think suicide is the best option and I have tried numerous times to end it all as I can see no light at the end of the tunnel.

I have joined this forum to seek help and advice from others in similar situations to me.

 

[amethist]

H bradleyg

Welcome to the forum.

You will find a lot of members on here who can relate directly to all you are going through right now, either they have been there or are still there at this point you are at now. They will understand and offer advice and support as you move further forward. Which you will do even if you don't feel that it is possible just now, believe me it is.

Well done to your wife too, for being able to tell your psychiatrist how things are really going. There are not many of us who are allowed to do that, either by their sufferer or the professionals. Maybe she could have a look on here too, to find more ways to help and support you as well as support for herself. She may be glad to be able to relate to other carers who will understand her issues too.

The easiest way to try and cope with some of the bad days could be to just find time and space to be somewhere calm and peaceful, not easy with a young family, but it would show your wife you are trying to do the best for all of you until you are more sure of how to manage your symptoms. The other option is not really the answer, more a cop out, sorry not meant to sound insulting, just my husband is glad he did not take that option a few years ago.

Maybe you could go have a look at the Combat PTSD forum, you will find the link to that at the top in the EXTRAS drop down menu.

Keep posting, asking questions, reading other stories and you will find a way to keep going.

Take care and good luck.

Amethist