Mentally Ill

[verasdfghjkl]

@shimmerz

We're really all just people with emotions and we may react to it differently, but I believe there is a pattern in a few things.
That is what I use as a litmus test for my somatic responses and figuring out this jigsaw puzzle.

Haha, I kind of use it to protect myself as well... So, out of fear. I guess. Oh well, I'll keep trying to find a solid solution to all of the fear-and-PTSD-and-how-to-respond-normal thingy, even though I know there isn't one. We just have to keep trying and searching what works, and what doesn't. ....Also, I hope the medication I just got will help a little :p

Lately, my gut has been fairly right most of the time.
I have found being able to listen to my gut to be a very helpful thing. Did this take much work on your part @verasdfghjkl ?

Well, I used to think my gut was too much PTSD-soaked or something.. For example I do not trust people at all, and don't really connect on a close level to most of my friends, and I have been feeling lately like I don't want that close connection to anyone really, because it scares the shit out of me. But I think my gut is correct most of the time... Just turns out that way every time. So at first I had this seperation of myself into two parts: instinct/emotion and logic. But seems like it's way more tricky than that, since my gut seems to be right all the time. So now I should call the PTSD part of myself my body? Or something? I don't know... This is a perfect example of how we keep trying to find the answer in order to keep our logic part sane, so that we don't get lost in our heads from pure confusion, I think. At least, this is how it works for me.

 

[Hashi]

Denial has definitely played a big part in my own mental illness. That's my denial as much as anyone else's. I didn't believe myself. But then that comes round to another question - did I disbelieve myself because others were in denial or...?

I've found it very helpful to see my condition as mental illness. I see the diagnosis of mental illness as explaining what's happening and showing me what needs to be healed.

If it isn't mental illness, and/or it isn't significantly different from many other people's experiences, I might as well give up now. I need to know that there's such a thing as mental well-being. That can include issues. To me, it means that the issues don't destroy your life, and that there are other things in life besides.