Missing My Perpetrator

[radicalgratitude]

Thanksgiving was hard, and today is not much better. What was I thinking when I ended my relationship with my Dad sixteen months ago?! I want my paternal side of my family back!

I'm supposed to be thankful on this holiday but when I see other women with their fathers, my heart breaks.

I miss my stepmom. She ended her relationship with me when I ended my relationship with him.

For me, this song is about her:

It came out the same time she stopped talking to me and blocked me on Facebook.

Sometimes staying silent about things that matter feels better that staying true to yourself.

 

[Seagreen]

What is right isn't always easy. Beautiful song.

 

[ms spock]

Sometimes staying silent about things that matter feels better that staying true to yourself.

It does, and that is training that you got as a child. Luckily you are a not a child now. Having said that, this stuff is not easy, and I feel for you. Big hugs and TLC coming right at you, if you would like them today.

I struggle with this family attachment stuff so much, I have always had big problems with it. I can say only mindfulness and compassion, but know in my heart I still struggle with this stuff.

Much Kindness to you, today.

 

[ms spock]

@Seagreen is spot on, what is right is not easy, most of the time.

Stunning song @radicalgratitude! Keep healing your heart with music.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

That song has meaning for me, too. It is horrible to feel so much hurt. It hurts to make a choice that is good for you, but suffer the consequences that make it feel so bad.

 

[ms spock]

Oh @JEKBreatheandBelieve that is such a sentence of so much presence and understanding that I am moved to tears.