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[myheart]

I have no clue how to quote, so if there is a quoting mess, please forgive me. anthony, what I am replying to is this: "I am struggling with stress, yes... and it helps me to stop from losing it completely. " My excuse for drinking excessively is that other people get their Clonopin, etc. I have my tequila since my psych docs would never give me tranquilizers. (That is smart of them because, knowing myself, I would then take the pills AND drink since my true reason for drinking is not to feel relaxed and get a nice 'buzz', but to zone out and not feel mental pain.) I think I kinda give myself an excuse by saying that the drinking is necessary so that I can 'act' normal and be nice to people, like I'm doing 'this' for others. I guess the truth is that I like zoning out and I can't quit. Yes, I've tried in every way I can think of.

 

[Changing4Best]

In order to quit, one has to want to quit. It won't happen if you really don't want to quit.

 

[myheart]

Maybe that's my problem. If I quit, I don't know how I would survive though. I mean, my pain is "sharp and constant" (to sadly quote the movie 'American Psycho' that I watched yesterday.) I have tried AA meetings twice (it wasn't right for me). I gave my debit card, all my cash and even my laundry money to someone to hold for me so I wouldn't buy alcohol, (but I just borrowed a friend's money!) The thing that worked best was a 6 month Christian FREE online program, with an equally FREE mentor. It was great and I quit for 9 months.

 

[anthony]

I used to drink that type of quantity when really bad... but I knew what it would do to me in the long run. Quitting alcohol to me is not the solution, but simply limiting how much is drunken over the period of a week. If you want to cut back because you know how bad it is for you for longevity, then set yourself realistic and small goals to begin cutting it back, until you reach one bottle a week, then try for half a bottle a week, which in the scheme of consumption isn't a great thing or dangerous for you in the long run.

 

[myheart]

Thank you anthony, for your kind response. I have tried maybe a hundred times to moderate my drinking by all sorts of ways, but haven't been able to do it. I am amazed that you previously had drank the amount that I do, since I am amazed that I am still alive! it actually feels good to know that someone has been where I am and has really drank that much and doesn't think that I am exaggerating or making it up. On a lighter note, once, in a drunken mess I told someone I was going to die eventually of liver flavor. This person corrected me, letting me know that it's 'liver failure', NOT 'liver Flavor'! Hehe! :) How much do you drink these days?

 

[anthony]

Normally, not always... a carton of mid-strength beer per fortnight. Some weeks I go out with friends and have a big session, then may not drink for a week... some times I go out and have a beer with dinner, party, event, so forth. I don't drink spirits much nowadays. The Haig and cola above was one Nicolette bought and she couldn't drink, so they were left for me to drink. Saying that... I typically only drink beer during the hotter months, and I rarely drink alcohol during winter here, instead opting for coffee / soup and such.

 

[myheart]

That is inspiring, that moderation CAN be done! For some though, it has to be total abstinance, which would be my situation!
P.S. I used to be on here a while ago, and I remember you and your wife Nicolette! I hope you are both doing well!

 

[anthony]

Like people said above... you have to want to change. Doing, not talking about doing.

 

[KP the nut]

At my worst I was drinking maybe a bottle and a half everyday. Our recycling box was embarrassing. Now, I will have 1 or 2 glasses and have at least 3 alcohol free nights a week.

Occasionally, I will have more, if out with friends or a party. However, I now make sure I always drink water as well.

 

[myheart]

Just a nonsense blurb, please forgive the post!