lostforgottensoul
MyPTSD Pro
That's mainly where my issue lies, as well. It's not necessarily the fight, or what caused it that are hurting for me. It's her explosive reactions, and then the complete loss of emotion at the end
As a sufferer, I get explosion reactions and then numbness. I go through that where my reactions to seemingly mundane things are explosive and then I go numb due to being overwhelmed with emotions. That I cannot control. What I don't do is try to take something away (going to counseling for instance) from someone else simply because I'm upset (or sympthomatic). Maybe its a controling thing. I know I struggled a lot with control and having control over things I couldnt control in the past and that was a real struggle for me. So maybe its something like that but she seems to be attempting to control you or make you suffer in some way and that is no bueno.
Personally? I would make some boundries for yourself if you guys do get back together. This is where your own therapist or counselor would come in handy. To teach you about boundries and how to lay and use them. I know you said insurence was the issue when it comes to therapy. There are some free counselors out there. Mainly associated with churches but they are out there. I would be very picky of who you see if you go that route as I got several bad ones that way but its an idea.