Music Therapy...

[Chosen]

you were in a cult? I so rarely meet ppl raised in cults.

I listen to them whenever I need to. I love Numb, In the End, the New Divide, and What I've done.

 

[I'm not Spiderman]

I think I was referring to the cult of being a Linkin Park fan... My apologies for the misunderstanding!

 

[Chosen]

oh no worries!

 

[I'm not Spiderman]

Haven't heard New Divide and What I've Done. Going to listen to those...

My absolute favourite (forgot to mention above) is Breaking The Habit. I just love it

 

[Powder]

As I read the posts, I feel like I'm from another PTSD planet. I'm also ashamed that I can't handle music. Like it's a trigger.

99% of the time, music makes me start crying uncontrollably. You could put pop music on that others think is nice, and I'm just bawling. Even 'happy' music that is more upbeat does this. Public, private, doesn't matter. All the feelings I'm repressing suddenly take over, and I start to cry. The only other things that do this are flashbacks, nightmares, and being in therapy.

It feels like I'm working so hard all the time to hold back the immense pain of my life, and I'm doing this without realizing it until I hear music, which cuts through this resistance, and the whole dam breaks.

 

[Gadgie]

I know what you mean Muse, there is a song that ASDA are using on their TV advert just now, and I just can't help it, every time it comes on the tears come, and I get a lump in my throat.

It was the song that was played while we lowered my wife down into her grave, it will haunt me for ever now.

 

[Gem5y]

So much music out there!! I think I have a song for every holiday, happy time, sad time. It's the way I feel. Express. Was my escape during a difficult childhood. I have carried it to adulthood, done a music degree, I teach it although it is all crumbling at he moment. Anyways ...
I love linkin park. I. My teens and twenties particular. Points of authority, numb, bleed it out, hands held high, faint, breaking the habit, victimized, nobody's listening.

Trauma related
Nickleback - never again

Creed- wash away those years

Tori Amos- me and a gun

Offspring- Kristy are you okay?

Everclear- wonderful

Emotions
Muse- madness, survival, new born, feeling good

Pink- don't let me get me, just like a pill

Limp bizkit - break stuff

Coldplay - the scientist, fix you, us against the world,

Birdy - terrible love skinny love

Cristina Perry- jar of hearts

Christina aguilera- beautiful

James Bay- hold back the river

Mike and the mechanics- living years

Stone sour - through glass

Classical-
Love to listen to Fauré elegise for cello makes me cry. Verdis requiem for anger. I enjoy playing i giorni on the piano by Einaudi and some of his other stuff. Beethoven piano sonata in c minor first movement sad times as a kid and third movement my madness love tom play and listen to that one.

That's me!

 

[I'm not Spiderman]

@Muse - I'm so sorry music makes you feel that way. If it's any consolation there are things that I feel everyone else enjoys which fill me with dread. I kind of know how that feels. Music has always been a huge part of my life and has been a huge part of my recovery, I can't imagine how it feels for you. I am really sorry.

@Gadgie - There are some songs which do that for me. There are a few songs which are reminders of my abuser (who introduced me to them). Once I was in a cafe and they started playing one and I had a huge flashback. Sometimes when I feel really bad and I am immersed in my pain I allow myself to listen to them, to wallow in my emotions for a bit. It sounds bad, but sometimes "meeting the pain" helps me address it/face it. There are also times I really want to listen to that music because I love those songs and I wouldn't know them without my abuser. I don't know how to feel about them. These are the songs that haunt me,

@Gem5y GOOD TO MEET YOU! I feel exactly about music too. Music catalogues my life in the same way. Love most of the songs you've mentioned and classical/piano. Hope to talk to you more!