Mute Mode

[Sazza]

Hey lovely people,

Thank godness for this forum as typing seems to be one thing i can do at the moment. I seem to be sinking and don't know how to stop it. I feel like someone has come along and press the mute on me, i don't want to physically talk, move or do anything. Trying to stop it in its tracks but feel i have zero energy to so thought maybe reaching out here may help.

I seem to be going through these periods of agitation, anxiety and think think think to sinking. I am not sure which is worst. Problem is when i sink the thoughts are still there just stuck on hold. I have a GP appointment towards the end of the week and am worrying if i continue like this i will go and say nothing. I struggle with appointments as it is never say everything need to cause nerves etc. At moment though i know can write things down but if im on mute whats the point in going. So much wanted find out to about if Gp feels i should be covered by DDA etc, my sick note is up to so worried incase i am pushed back to work like this.

Not sure what the mute is all about if it just part how feel or what, i could easily sit here oblivious of time and in silence at moment moving around but dragging myself as such effort. Maybe my body has been overloaded and now shutting now don't understand any of it and don't know how get anything across at Gp while like this.If didnt have people around me feel like id be in some kind catatonic state.

Thanks for listening, sorry to moan.

Sazza

 

[Heather]

Can someone go with you to your appointment that can communicate how you are feeling?

 

[Sazza]

I don't really have anyone to take with me Heather that knows how i am feeling really, wish i did. I have a friend who knows a little but is very busy and asked her few times and she always forgets so i have just always ended up going alone. I can make some notes to take but not sure if that will be enough. Its a good suggestion just worried about going like this, sometimes when get there will end up talking but at moment not so sure. Not really sure of anything.

 

[Heather]

(((((Sazza)))))

 

[Sazza]

Thanks Heather, just wrote few notes for appointment on thursday. Thing reading it will take up consultation as it a side A4, just focused on mental stuff for now physical stuff have wait. Did think about asking reception if could be handed to GP before go in to read as im first appointment of day. Maybe i should hand deliver it tomorrow in hope gets to see it before thursday and take copy incase doesn't hate things beingf read when there probably missed something off. Not sure what do for best, do think should keep hold it or take it in tomorrow.