aquadragon
New Here
Hi, I'm a 60 y.o. bloke and was diagnosed with PTSD 30 years ago, the result of a work injury.
I've realised for many years now that sibling bullying and emotional abuse from the age of 5 was
a huge catalyst.
By the age of 25 I'd visited over 60 countries, however after the injury I became unable to go to the letterbox! I moved from city life to a quiet town , an affordable house, and started to volunteer with adults with disabilities, which led to paid work for 15 years, until it became too stressful to handle. I've been retired now for about 12 years, and although I've become far more reclusive,
I generally cope well with my solitude...I'm used to it, but of course there are times when my isolation seems overwhelming, and I ache for companionship.
At times agoraphobia is quite crippling. I really struggle to leave the house every 2 weeks to go shopping for groceries. I have a ½ hour drive, to the next town, to shop. When I actually start the drive I feel a real sense of freedom and achievement, and can handle the situation, its just that first step that's a killer!
ATM its been almost 4 weeks and I'm living on slim rations. I think its quite hilarious that now my car battery is flat, from lack of use, and so there is extra stress involved in getting out. I MUST and will go tomorrow...it'll feel great getting stocked up...I'm kidding myself into thinking of it more as a 'treasure hunt'!
I find it difficult to communicate, more so lately as I have optic atrophy which makes reading a challenge, but as I've found some comfort and solace in finding this forum , I just wanted say hello.
I've realised for many years now that sibling bullying and emotional abuse from the age of 5 was
a huge catalyst.
By the age of 25 I'd visited over 60 countries, however after the injury I became unable to go to the letterbox! I moved from city life to a quiet town , an affordable house, and started to volunteer with adults with disabilities, which led to paid work for 15 years, until it became too stressful to handle. I've been retired now for about 12 years, and although I've become far more reclusive,
I generally cope well with my solitude...I'm used to it, but of course there are times when my isolation seems overwhelming, and I ache for companionship.
At times agoraphobia is quite crippling. I really struggle to leave the house every 2 weeks to go shopping for groceries. I have a ½ hour drive, to the next town, to shop. When I actually start the drive I feel a real sense of freedom and achievement, and can handle the situation, its just that first step that's a killer!
ATM its been almost 4 weeks and I'm living on slim rations. I think its quite hilarious that now my car battery is flat, from lack of use, and so there is extra stress involved in getting out. I MUST and will go tomorrow...it'll feel great getting stocked up...I'm kidding myself into thinking of it more as a 'treasure hunt'!
I find it difficult to communicate, more so lately as I have optic atrophy which makes reading a challenge, but as I've found some comfort and solace in finding this forum , I just wanted say hello.
