My Anxiety Is Worse, At Nighttime

[therisa]

Not sure, why my anxiety spikes after 7 pm, but it does. Where my most brutal panic attack/flashback leave me, paralysed with fear. Does anyone else, experience anything similar to this? And beyond mindful breathing, how do you copy ?

I thank you, for any suggestions.

 

[Grace511]

Due to my history and ptsd mine gets worse when I am trying to fall asleep

 

[therisa]

Anna, I wonder if our reactions is the product of our subscious minds, trying to deal with our past trauma

 

[EvenStrongerNow]

My anxiety rises at night too. So does irritability and flash backs.

I am pretty sure it is because when I was a kid, my abuser never let me sleep. He always came home drunk and woke us up.

I won't share the rest because I don't want to trigger anyone but I think the idea of going to sleep is traumatic for me because of what it was like for me then. The anxiety and terror of anticipation every night haunts me.

 

[therisa]

Unlike you, StrongerNow, most of my trauma happened, in the daytime, except for my near-fatal electrical burns, which happened, at nighttime, when I was 4 years old.

 

[EvenStrongerNow]

Oh I experienced day time trauma also...pretty much all day and every day.

One tiny snippet....I was confined to my room all day and he put a piece of tape on the door and said he would know if I came out and that he would kill me if I did. I cant remember how i went to the bathroom or what I did in there all day. Every day when I'd wake up, I was told that I was ugly and worthless and a pig. I was told to get back to my room because nobody wanted to see my face. For years as an adult, there have been many triggers as a result of just those 2 things.

Anyway....it looks like you may have figured out one possible source to your night time anxiety? I am sure there is much more trauma that you've experienced than just that. I am so sorry you are suffering. I just wanted you to know that I understand and I am here for you.

Anxiety is crazy, right? It is insane what it can do to us...

 

[Grace511]

Strongernow my anxiety is heightened at night too because my abusers would also come home high and wake me up. They would slam doors,talk loud and even knock on my door asking for stupid things like markers. The next day when you would confront them about it they would completely deny it.

 

[therisa]

StrongerNow, you're a beautiful soul, even if, your father-figure couldn't see it, and I, thank you, for your undivided support. It is very possible, I have blocked out traumatic episodes, which has occurred during the nighttime, especially, concerning my brother's physical and emotional abuse of me.

Oh Grace, can I give you, a hug? You sound like, you need some comforting, right now.

 

[Grace511]

Therisa of course you can. Thank you. I dont know if or how I will get over this issue. My doctor upped my zoloft and put me on klonopin but I still wake up throughout the night especially when I hear any little noise