My bipolar moods (with severity)

[Changing4Best]

Well, I am glad to see that folks read this, even though no one says much. I guess there is not that much to say....

I found ONE Bed Bug between my mattress and box spring today. Also, there was ONE in my laundry. Other than that, I could not find any. However, ONE is far too many to have, since one female can lay 300 eggs!

So I ordered some Diatomaceous Earth from amazon.com and I guess the exterminator is coming Monday. We shall see what he finds.... I have base boards. I wish I didn't! They can hide in those. And breed. I have rugs. This is SUCH a nightmare. I wish I were DEAD sometimes, instead of having to go through all this.

I am DISGUSTED! At a 10. This is SOOOooooo gross.

 

[Changing4Best]

I just found out that bed bugs do not JUMP, so whatever was between my mattress and my box spring apparently was NOT a bed bug! RELIEF at a 10, but then, WHAT was it, a flea or something? I don't have a dog. I have a Guinea Pig. Maybe it came from him? PUZZLED. at a 6.

 

[Changing4Best]

Hopeful this morning. Maybe at a 6. Kind of frazzled though, Sleeping poorly. That is not good. I get maybe 5-6 hours a night recently. However, compared to about a year ago, this is great. I have to keep things in perspective. Last year at this time, I was getting even less sleep, I think, than that.

 

[Changing4Best]

My apartment was inspected and no bed bugs were found in it, however 2 apartments in the building were not so lucky. They will be treated a week from today. In the meantime, I am working to repel them and have bought various things with which to do so. I am relieved at a 10.

I am Co-Leading a HAPPINESS CHALLENGE here on this Forum (check for the Thread for it in Social). I am so happy to be doing this. These have been so helpful to me in the past. HAPPINESS is possible. It is something we can work at to improve. Check it out. Join us if you want to be happier!!! This brings my HAPPINESS up to a 10, just thinking about it. Doing it will bring it to an 11 (grin).

 

[Changing4Best]

Here's the link, so you can find it more easily:

Would anyone be interested in a happiness challege?

 

[Changing4Best]

Today is job training. I enjoy that, as we get a day off from the usual and time to be with others who do the same job as we do. Also, there is a nice feast for lunch. It is a change of pace, something different, something to break up the monotony and a little something exciting even. So I am kind of joyous today, also, just the fact that we are doing a HAPPINESS CHALLENGE here on the Forum, makes me happy. So I am in a really good mood today, something I have been missing for far too long.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am glad that you are having a good day today.

 

[WishfulThinking123]

I am really looking forward to the challenge- what a wonderful idea! I am even going to try to get my family to do it alongside with me :) Sometimes I find myself getting stuck in my past which isn't good- I am hoping this will help change my mindset and maybe even get me into reading my Bible again daily during the "meditation" time. I am glad you had a good day :)

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm so glad that you will be doing this with us, @WishfulThinking123 and I am so happy that Dharmagirl thought of it and remembered it and decided to contact me and ask me if I wanted to help lead it. What an honor. Of course I wanted to help. I will do whatever I can to encourage folks who are doing it and also hopefully bring others into it too, so that we have a nice large group of folks who are interested.

I have shared the video with a lot of my friends and they, some of them, have also expressed an interest in doing it or at least parts of it.

Today I thought of a Gratitude that I really have had for quite some time. What prompted it was seeing some photographs of living conditions in Hong Kong. Folks there are renting cubicles that are so small that you cannot even fit a CHAIR into them!!! They have beds, the smallest they can be, just big enough to lay down in, but hardly large enough to roll over in, I kid you not!!! So I am grateful for my apartment. It is large enough to fit all my belongings comfortably, including, but not limited to:
a twin sized bed
2 couches
1 coffee table
3 regular chairs
a recliner chair
3 bookshelves
a kitchen table
an extra table for my games
2 bed tables, one of which I use for puzzles and just a place to put stuff
a hutch
a fish aquarium
my pet Guinea Pig
2 desks
and then there are 3 closets, one large, one medium and a linen one
then there is the stove, the kitchen sink with 2 sides to it
the bathroom with a tub/ shower and space in there for a couple of storage bins
my dresser

Well, you get the idea. Those people in Hong Kong don't have room for 90% of the things I have! I did see a toilet, but no bathing area. Their stove was maybe half the size of mine and mine is small. (Not complaining about mine, I love it!). Anyway, my point is that I am very blessed with all the space I have and everything that God has given me to put in it! Life is so good.

Sure, so some nasty stuff has happened to me recently, but I forgot to think about all the nice things that have happened too. This HAPPINESS CHALLENGE is helping me to appreciate life so much more, and we have not even started officially yet!

 

[Changing4Best]

I've been busy the last few days, so have not written much. A lot going on. Yesterday I had a pretty good day, we went on a Field Trip. However, one of the bullies was on it too and spent the whole trip telling bawdy sex jokes and making all kinds of unacceptable comments in general, if it was not outright tasteless.

I did some research on Wikipedia today about sexual harassment, wanting to find out what it is and what it isn't. What this guy does is bordering on sexual harassment, if not actually being so. For one thing it is happening where I work. I have no choice but to listen to it. I'm a captive audience. It is annoying and tasteless.

This morning he walked into the Senior Center and said to a 90 year old man, "Stop looking at those girlie pictures." The man was reading the newspaper and did not comment. This man says stuff like this all the time, and it is so annoying!

I cannot wait until we have the lecture from Adult Protective Services on Bullying on the 23rd. I wonder how this bully will respond to a lecture about bullying? I wonder if he will even recognize himself??

 

[WishfulThinking123]

@SheilaKathy I'm sorry that this is going on :( I feel for you, I think we should have a say in what we are exposed to and listening to those kind of sexual comments day in day out would be taxing. Is there any way you could talk to him and say it makes you feel uncomfortable or would that just make it worse?

 

[Changing4Best]

Wikipedia's article on it says that the victims rarely have any benefits from trying to handle it themselves. In fact, generally it gets worse if we try to stop it. I found the article very helpful, because I was getting to the point where I felt like I needed to say something, but I can see that would be counterproductive.

I am waiting for the lecture from the experts. Then, if that does not handle it, then my boss, the Senior Center Director will have to take further actions to handle it. I don't know what will happen in the long run. Steps can be taken one by one. He can be kicked out of there, but I would hate to see that happen to him, as he has no vehicle and depends upon the Senior Center bus to take him to the grocery and such. He is 79 years old, so we have to consider his needs too. I don't want to see him suffer or anything, I just want this to be handled in such a way that he is made aware of the fact that what he says makes SOME people uncomfortable and upset them. I am sure I am not the only person there that is upset by his bawdy jokes and attitude.

One thing that is interesting is that the term and idea of "sexual harassment" was first coined in 1970. Before that time, no on was on to this attitude in men or that there was anything wrong with it. In other words, this guy and most of the men from his generation grew up thinking that this was the manly macho thing to do! They don't know any better. @WishfulThinking123