Sufferer My First Time Here Victim Of Lifelong Abuse

[aXXomus]

I come here looking for help and others who I can share my day to day struggles with, I have been through a history of abuse and abandonment ever since I was young. I have been diagnosed with ptsd and a learning disability which is causing me a lot of street in my life. My PTSD keeps me from making new friends even socially anxious to the point where I can't talk it's like I am afraid of saying the wrong thing in groups and in front of random strangers. I do try and be outgoing as I can be and now that it's fall things slow down so much that I stay only in my room and rarely ever hang out with anyone. This is why making friends for me is a hit or miss and many close relatives do not understand me and think I am mentally retarded and it offends me. I am in a group for young adults and it's helping but it's tough to get up and go out there and be apart of something big. Well I try and be positive and open to everything, but no one opens up to me either. I do blame myself to an extent.

Hope to find help here.

 

[kntryldy]

Well sweetie you have come to the right place. Your story sounds very similar to my own. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and OCD about a month ago. For me once I started to see why a couple of my traumas happened it made my social anxiety make a lot more sense. I am the type to research everything and as far as PTSD goes it is one of the only illnesses that I recommend researching. I made the mistake in 2013 of researching a hysterectomy before I had one. THAT WAS A BAD IDEA lol. Keep your head up; you are on the road to recovery and help is coming.

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the forums

 

[Ocean5]

Welcome to forums - you can feel safe here in what you say. There is also an anonymous section if that helps.

to the point where I can't talk it's like I am afraid of saying the wrong thing

I was like that in my youth. I remember as teenager my father (abuser) being locked away for a couple years. People commented to my mom, "I was actually talking and having conversations with people." Real eye opener when my mom told me that.

It can get better - just hold onto hope.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi and welcome. You can talk as much or as little as you like on here. We don't know who you are, so feel free.

 

[RavenGirl]

@aXXomus Welcome and let me just say this, I truly believe you are WAY SMARTER than your family is giving you credit for!!;) I have worked with kids with disabilities for the last 15 years, they are smart! :) They just need to learn in their own ways. Please don't let what they tell you bring you down, you are a beautiful, smart person who deserves to have their voice heard. :shy: This is a safe place to do that. Welcome and feel free to use your voice here. :tup::happy:

 

[aXXomus]

Thank you all for your warm welcomes.

 

[intothelight]

@aXXomus Welcome to the forum!

PTSD symptoms can have many effects and social anxiety may be one of the symptoms. This site is a good place to begin to engage in interactions with others. The members here really do understand.