Death My friend suicided last week, i'm numb & sad & all over the place

[mumstheword]

I'm very sorry for your loss mum's the word, I'm sorry he felt like there was no hope, what a terrible...

Thank you. Yes, very, very tragic and heart breaking.
I really appreciate your care and kindness.:)

 

[SaharaSon]

It was so unexpected. He was involved with my bestie but clearly had c-ptsd going on as he shared w...

@mumstheword I so sorry for you loss. I have CPTSD and occasionally intense depression which have had me entertaining thoughts of suicide. God in his mercy has pulled me back from the debths. Some things I do are: 1) talk to God 2) find anything to distract me from those thoughts and 3) work diligently to brighten my life with activities. It has worked for me every time. Thanks to God. ;)

 

[mumstheword]

@mumstheword I so sorry for you loss. I have CPTSD and occasionally intense depres...

I'm so glad :-) i have C-ptsd too. I'm feelin' ya. So glad we both made it through. I won't lie, I'm here by the skin of my teeth from many close calls and a few attempts in my youth. My faith and "destiny" and the Unknowable Presence has pulled me back from the brink many many times.

 

[mumstheword]

So the setback to my recovery from the death of my friend is definitely a thing. I also had some major triggering situations in the last day of my hospital stay and the day after I got back from my hospital stay.
And the biggest one of all was probably finding out my 19 year old son was suicidal last Friday before this one just gone.
All in all, though, I'm managing. I'm responding and acting responsibly.
Ok fine, I pretended I wasn't here when someone knocked on the door yesterday and I'm hanging out in my bed a lot, too much, but I'm achieving goals too.

 

[littleoc]

You're doing well enough, I'd say :hug: