My Internet Is Down, So....

[Changing4Best]

Sorry I am not here so often! I am on my neighbor's computer now, but that is a touch and go thing, as she is not at home often. Today she is taking a day off from work, hence my ability to be online! I miss you all! Be back as soon as I can. Until then....

 

[Ocean5]

Nice neighbor. Good luck with internet. Does she have wifi you can borrow that reaches your place?

 

[Ronin]

Good luck with life meantime, Sheila ;)

Thinking of you too, hope other than hassle with the internet, you're alright and will continue to be. All the good wishes & prayers your way.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Sheila I hope that you get your internet back soon. In the meantime take care of you.

 

[Changing4Best]

Well, the internet issues have not been resolved yet, so I am at the Library now again. I will be getting my own internet soon, as all my neighbors are unable to help me with having it at this time for various reasons too complicated to explain. Hopefully I will be back up and running in a week, two at the most. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. Please keep them coming. I have having a rough time of it, living without internet, which is such a huge part of my life. I not only do this site, but another that directly supports me in my mental health issue. That one also helps me with another issue in my life as well. Overeating....

 

[Changing4Best]

Well, it is still down, but it is scheduled to be installed as a new account with a different company sometime this week. Please keep me and my internet in prayer and warm fuzzy thoughts, so that I can be AT HOME with all of you soon. I love you and miss you.

 

[Changing4Best]

Well, it is still not hooked up. I am so tired of waiting.... I am at the Library again, just trying to stay sane, but very frustrated. Being at home without my usual music that I listen to online, not being able to email my therapist whenever I feel like it, Not being able to go to chat or to Facebook or all the other places I love to go online (especially at 3AM when I wake up and cannot get back to sleep!) is driving me insane again. I had been doing so well. That was when I had a computer online at home. Now I am just waiting for it to get back up and running online and I am waiting and waiting.... please pray for my sanity!

 

[Ocean5]

I feel for you. Have you looked into getting a temporary hot spot? If you have the extra money.

I use to have one that was $40 a month called Clear, but I think Sprint owns them now. Another FreedomPop was less. Best of luck.

 

[The Albatross]

Shelia, of course I hope to see you back online again... I used to go nuts when my support systems fell apart, didn't work or couldn't get on line. I had a sponsor calmly but gently ask me, "Where is your real reliance? Who are you relying on right now." Ouch. Of course being a sister Christian I could see that I had my freak out because my real reliance wasn't on God, or on my trust in His suffiency (hacked that word) and I am able to be enough for what He has set for me until my work is done.

Just food for thought but hope it gets resolved quickly.

 

[Changing4Best]

WOW! I was just awarded a Lifetime Premium Membership here for having 5000 posts. I am surprised that I posted that many times, but then I am not. My memory is failing.... partly due to the psychotropic meds I take and partly because of my age, which is in my mid-60s. None the less. I am touched that my contributions here amount to something like this and that I am being thanked for my contributions. Rarely do I get thanked for anything much. It is nice to be recognized.

Now about my internet. Yes, I am relying on God less than I should, I agree. I've known this for quite some time. I rely on people a lot. I rely on the government for my sustanance. (Spelling is not my forte, I could not figure out how to spell that word, but I believe you can figure it out). I rely upon food for comfort sometimes. And my internet has been a habit and an addiction, I know this. It has been so since 1994 when I first came online. There is something so nice about not being judged for one's physical appearance. There is something so comforting about getting a :hug: online. There is something so fabulous about being able to BE with people, even though you are half a world away from them physically! However, there is a down side too. And it is the addictive nature of these wonderful feelings that one gets from being with folks in this way, without having to deal with all the physical ramifications.

I'm finding other things to do. I am reading more, coming to the Library and finding interesting books. Being more active at church. And I also found an Overeaters' Anonymous meeting 12 miles from where I live, which I will be attending for the first time tomorrow. I am looking forward to being a part of this group. And OA does focus on reliance on God. That is part of the whole program. So it should help me to do that.

None the less, I am saddened by the amount of time it is taking to get hooked up online. I am frustrated. I cannot seem to change these feelings. I know God has His reasons. I know when He wants it to be,. that I will again have internet., In the meantime, I am slowly going CRAZY!

 

[Changing4Best]

Well, I am still at the Library, still awaiting internet at my home. I don't know what the problem is, but it seems to be taking forever! I hate this. I really do. It is disrupting my life. Right now they are vacuuming at the Library. It is very annoying trying to type with the sound of a vacuum in the background. I am so used to my peacedful music in the background at home or pure silence, which truly is GOLDEN.

 

[Changing4Best]

OK, Finally I got an "appointment" for the installation. It will be on August 4th at 2PM. How I will keep my sanity until then is beyond me, but somehow, by the grace of God alone, I shall survive. Meanwhile, the Library is becoming my second home....