My Mind Is Blocking Out My Sight??

[Srain]

I keep experiencing my mind blocking out seeing things I need when I need them like my keys to go to my tdoc appt or her number and when I find another solution to it I find them right where they are suppose to be. It's not the 'normal' overlooking of things, this happens only with the very important things and it's very obvious and it's getting to me.

I tried to call my tdoc yesterday because I needed to share something with her but I couldn't find her number anywhere of the places I carefully put it. I couldn't "see" it no matter how hard I looked. I finally stopped looking because I knew the harder I looked the sooner I would just go into a panic attack.

Does this happen to anyone else??

 

[curiouser]

I can't say I've had this happen to me before, I wonder if there is a reason behind this behavior.

What very important thing(s) about your life are you not "seeing" or choosing not to "see" ?

 

[BloomInWinter]

Yes...for me, it takes the form of screwing up my scheduled times, appointments, which doc office, etc.

Amazing how complex and highly adaptive our minds are to 'camo' the key to a perceived dander is.

It started to get better when I stopped hating, blaming, shaming on the 'protector' inside me doing this. Now, I tell myself..."huh, feeling afraid? It's understandable. But it's ok. I'm here with you and I'll keep you safe" and voila...am able to function again. THAT easy.

But OMG...THAT HARD.

 

[BloomInWinter]

ugh. Typing on mobile with my cold numb hands= wrong keys. Make that DANGER.

 

[blwnawy]

This is something that affects me also, not only find it very frustrating but dangerous as well.

Been good payback mileage for the Missus though lol, you know how us men have a knack of not be able to find things when looking? Well I now have the uncanny knack of looking for something & it can be right in front of me & I just don't see it time in again, wife thinks it's hilarious:(.

We have three sets of key's now for each car, one set normal use, a spare set hidden under the car, another set left in the house. (can never be too careful:))

Have house keys on our everday use car key rings & one hidden in the garden :rolleyes: just in-case.
I numerous times have looked at the keys on the bench not registered, walked out locking the door behind me to find myself locked out with no car keys & quite often no wallet or phone as they're inside keeping the keys company.
(I'm embarrassed to say I've had to break in 5 or so times as the outside house key hasn't gone back from the previous lock out :rolleyes::rolleyes:)

On a more serious note, I've had two very close calls to date since the start of my ptsd 18 months ago, from pulling out in front of oncoming traffic (in my car). My eyes see but my brain just does not register, I've even considered handing my license in as a result as I couldn't bare it if someone was injured because of this.
This is extra frustrating & embarrassing for me because having been a professional truck driver for years (not now as I lost my job from "no longer being able to preform my duties") I've easily clocked up over 2 million accident free k's on the job.

Pre ptsd I used too live dirt bikes, loved nothing better than to blast off into the unknown on an old out of the way bush track. Good stress relief.
The last ride I went on well over 6 months ago I thought I was having trouble with my eyes was getting into all sorts of difficulty until it dawned on me that my eyes were seeing but my brain wasn't registering the obstacles & keeping up. To top it off my mates reckon I now ride like a girl (sorry ladies) hence this aside from the "scared in me now" is why my bikes sit neglected in the shed :(.

Wish I could blame this on the Med's but can't, tested that theory already.

 

[Srain]

I get what you are saying with the driving as well. I use all my mirrors and still turn my head, checking every angle I can and yet still sometimes I barely miss a car!! Scary to me, I'm a very defensive driver with a lot of miles under me, having driven across country 3 times, Alaska, Mexico, and Canada. Driving is my peace.

It's interesting, the thought of blocking something in my life. I can 'see' that in some scenarios and yet not in others, hmmm, am I blocking again?? I am entirely out of mind about it but am learning to adjust. I like the 3 sets of keys ;). I, too, have locked the keys in the car, in fact, locked my dog in the car. Not good, they don't consider them like children so it costs to open the car.

Thankfully I am not alone in this weirdness, not that I wish this on anyone else, it's just that it's frustrating at home and embarrassing in public so to feel this is one more thing setting me apart can add to the sense of being a social isolator.

Rain

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Have to laugh, yesterday just got ANOTHER $200 high-tech car key for me.
I have one for my purse (that is clipped on and has an orange loop of forestry tree marker tape on it), one in a magnetic hide-a-key box attached to the frame of the car, another for my H, and one to clip to my belt loop.

I like the belt loop clip. I can't conceive of going anywhere undressed (at least it hasn't happened yet, only in nightmares :p), so I always have a key.

We have a rental pickup right now, that only has 1 key. Naturally, I locked it inside the truck...

I can't tell you how many house and garage keys I have...

I used to have an incredible visual memory. Anyone could ask me where something was, and I could put my hands on it, in seconds. Now, I get turned around in stores and don't even know where I am in there.

I bought a nifty little key clip that has a compass, watch, day/date on it to keep me oriented and right-side up... Can't use it yet, the date and time needs to be set, and am too wiped to figure out the teeny-print second-language directions. ("Rook at second B nob, purr out, twist to reft...")

 

[blwnawy]

:DSorry Srain, please excuse this small diversion.
But I've got to say deer's last post has got me in stitches, it's really made my day.
It beg's the question why the rental in the first place? lol :D

 

[stacey]

I keep experiencing my mind blocking out seeing things I need when I need them like my keys to go to my tdoc appt or her number and when I find another solution to it I find them right where they are suppose to be. It's not the 'normal' overlooking of things, this happens only with the very important things and it's very obvious and it's getting to me.

I tried to call my tdoc yesterday because I needed to share something with her but I couldn't find her number anywhere of the places I carefully put it. I couldn't "see" it no matter how hard I looked. I finally stopped looking because I knew the harder I looked the sooner I would just go into a panic attack.

Does this happen to anyone else??

YES! In fact, my boyfriend and I have a running joke that I used to know stuff. I feel like my braincells are rebelling against me or my memories are dissolving or something. It's very frustrating when I know something until I need to pull it up in my brain, then it runs from me. I find myself sneaking up on things so I don't lose them. Not only is it rediculous, it's frustrating as Hell! I feel you on this one. It's getting to me as well.

 

[stacey]

I couldn't find my phone...I'm telling my daughter that I just saw it...it has to be right here! I just can't put my finger on it...it was in my hand for Christs's Sake!!!

 

[stacey]

I picture my braincells laughing and yelling at me "That's what you get for killing our friends, Bitch!"

 

[intothelight]

We solved the Debbie losing keys and installed thumb print readers. I may lose my head, but so far I haven't misplaced my hands :D