Childhood My Mother Died Before I Recovered Memories Of Csa

[Stills]

My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer when I was 10 and died when I was 15. She was prideful and alienated herself often so I took care of her. Physically and emotionally. We had a very close relationship, but she put me through a lot, and then skipped out before I eventually "broke". She'll never know what happened to me. The thought of that...I can't even let myself go there. It's only a matter of time until I feel it all at once.

 

[ladee]

@Stills, are you referring to the abuse , or your moms death, or both? I hope you have a therapist if you feel it starting to come to the surface... and we all fear the 'flooding'. So hope you have someone close by for support. I am sorry you had to grow up way before your time. Seems to be a theme here. Many of us really never had a childhood. Hope you come here and share with us as things go along..don't isolate, get it out . We are here for you... sending gentle hugs.