I don't know if there would still be life after betrayal! I just want to be at peace with myself, with the people around me and with my small world. I just want to experience peace. A tangible real peace! I recently read an article about "coping with PTSD" "http://www.hiddenhurt.co.uk/Articles/coping.htm...in the past some articles about PTSD had helped me in my journey to my self healing, (I don't see counselor nor attend/join a support group, this is my first time. I feel safe because it is online) but in the site I just posted, I get to learn more coping strategy I never knew before. And it is worth my time, I decide to follow some tips on coping like seeing a counselor or not putting myself in a risky situation or living in a crime infested area. It happened to me when I first move in my apartment a year ago. A burglar break in our house, entering the 2nd flr. terrace of my room. Nobody was hurt but then I got nightmares and sleepless nights after this event. My trauma was triggered by the event and was jumpy and sleepless for a month. I guess it is very important for a PTSD sufferer to feel safe in every situation they are in, they should prioritize the safe zone. Even in their relationship, friendship, movie viewing, visiting places,, I never knew this before. I was employed to a risky job, and then I started being agitated and suspicious of every people around me. This is where I decided to quit. I guess if I started seeing counselor, my perspective would be better, and I would not be dealing with my trauma all by myself. Also I would like to volunteer in a community work. I would find one in my area. XOXOXO