My Relationship With Myself

[Fadeaway]

My husband is out of town this week. First time we have been separated for more than 8 hours since we got married. Being the type of person who isolates at every given chance, I was really looking forward to the time by myself. His being home every day due to being out of work has really been getting to me. I need alone time!

The problem is that within an hour of him being gone my mind started "attacking" for lack of a better word. I realized I don't really like myself all that much. That is when I decided. I am going to take this week to work on my relationship with myself.

Having lived in total self induced isolation prior to us getting married, I had a handle on my relationship with myself, but over time and a lack of any decent period of time alone, I have lost sight of that.

This is day 1, we will see where this journey takes me.

 

[franciemarnie]

This will be great. What better thing to do than build better relationships with ourselves so that we have a greater sense of well being. Montaigne said, and I paraphrase, pay attention to what you attend to because that will determine your quality of life. That's not even a paraphrase. That was the gist. As many pleasant thoughts as you can is the goal.

I notice the self attack thing now too, much more since starting mindful meditation. I have become keenly aware too of my tendency to make mountains out of molehills when inside I am in emergency mode. It's like I'm insane. It's so great when I can pause and think Is this necessary to say? Is it true? Is it kind? But that I generally apply when with my husband.

Anyway, I hope this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship between you and you!