This will probably be a long introduction, so here goes.
I'm a 30 year old male from Denmark (Scandinavia). I live with my girlfriend, that I meet last year after getting divorced. We have a little daughter together, and she is almost three month old.
In 2009 I was sent to Helmand province in Afghanistan. I was stationed in the Gereshk area.
I was a group medic and rifleman, in an mechanized company. The most of the time we were on operations, or deployed at on of the small PB's in the area.
Things began going wrong while we were down there, and the last 2 month of my deployment I hardly slept, and I got increasingly aggressive, toward everyone around me. It was also here my nightmares began.
When I got back home to Denmark, I got help rather quickly. I was very aware that I had some problems. But getting help was halfhearted on my behalf, and all the symptoms kept recurring after some time.
I dropped out of the army in 2011 to go study in the civilian, and wow, that was like an mental explosion, being an warrior of mind, but living in the civilian world, it's still like that.
I got divorced last year, because my ex wife couldn't live with the person I was now.
Now three years after I got home, and I have an diagnosis on the ghost that haunt me every single day. PTSD.
It's frightening to have an diagnosis, and I feel like a mental case having it. I have worked so hard since I left the Army in 2011, I have taken some classes preparing for an education to becoming an Occupational therapist, the kind of people that help people like.... me.
But in June I became a farther, and everything came tumbling down. I could not take test on my school, so now am taking a leave from my study. I have nightmares, I get aggressive, I cannot concentrate, I keep most people at a distance, I get anxiety attacks where I cannot breathe, I cannot take care of my daughter when she cry, and so on.. Most times, I'm not a pleasant guy to be around.
I'm am suppose to go back to school in November, but right now, it seems like it's impossible.
I am going to some group sessions with some other veterans that should start this fall, but I cannot wait for it to start, better yesterday than tomorrow.
I feel like a zombie, going around not fitting in. It's like I see everything from the outside, like I'm not really here.
And a lot of the time I feel depressed with tears on the verge of pouring out.
My girlfriend is a great help. She do not try to tell me that she knows what I'm going through, but just ask me what I need, and if there's anything she can do. I could not ask for anything better.
Wow. That was a long intro. Hope it's ok... I'm just here to lurk and to talk to someone who might understand what I feel like, without having the person sitting right in front of me. Hope you understand.
I'm a 30 year old male from Denmark (Scandinavia). I live with my girlfriend, that I meet last year after getting divorced. We have a little daughter together, and she is almost three month old.
In 2009 I was sent to Helmand province in Afghanistan. I was stationed in the Gereshk area.
I was a group medic and rifleman, in an mechanized company. The most of the time we were on operations, or deployed at on of the small PB's in the area.
Things began going wrong while we were down there, and the last 2 month of my deployment I hardly slept, and I got increasingly aggressive, toward everyone around me. It was also here my nightmares began.
When I got back home to Denmark, I got help rather quickly. I was very aware that I had some problems. But getting help was halfhearted on my behalf, and all the symptoms kept recurring after some time.
I dropped out of the army in 2011 to go study in the civilian, and wow, that was like an mental explosion, being an warrior of mind, but living in the civilian world, it's still like that.
I got divorced last year, because my ex wife couldn't live with the person I was now.
Now three years after I got home, and I have an diagnosis on the ghost that haunt me every single day. PTSD.
It's frightening to have an diagnosis, and I feel like a mental case having it. I have worked so hard since I left the Army in 2011, I have taken some classes preparing for an education to becoming an Occupational therapist, the kind of people that help people like.... me.
But in June I became a farther, and everything came tumbling down. I could not take test on my school, so now am taking a leave from my study. I have nightmares, I get aggressive, I cannot concentrate, I keep most people at a distance, I get anxiety attacks where I cannot breathe, I cannot take care of my daughter when she cry, and so on.. Most times, I'm not a pleasant guy to be around.
I'm am suppose to go back to school in November, but right now, it seems like it's impossible.
I am going to some group sessions with some other veterans that should start this fall, but I cannot wait for it to start, better yesterday than tomorrow.
I feel like a zombie, going around not fitting in. It's like I see everything from the outside, like I'm not really here.
And a lot of the time I feel depressed with tears on the verge of pouring out.
My girlfriend is a great help. She do not try to tell me that she knows what I'm going through, but just ask me what I need, and if there's anything she can do. I could not ask for anything better.
Wow. That was a long intro. Hope it's ok... I'm just here to lurk and to talk to someone who might understand what I feel like, without having the person sitting right in front of me. Hope you understand.
