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[blueangel371115]

About a year ago., I tried to commit suicide. I was overwhelmed and angry. i drank way to much and tried to cut myself. Luckily, it didn't work. Then I decided to call the ambulance. I was terrified. I was undiagnosed at the time and I had no idea what was going on.

 

[Srain]

blueangel, that sounds very scary and it sounds like you felt extremely depressed at the time. It's to have you here and I hope you feel like you tell a bit more about what happened and why.

Please take care,
Rain

 

[anni]

Hi Blue Angel,

I hope being here will give you some peace. Sometimes it's comforting just to not be alone with this thing, beyond all the concrete informative tools there are here in the forum also.

I just wished to say welcome here. It's a good place to be, even if you do not post. There are articles on the home page which are hugely helpful as are the threads both new and old. I think when I first bumped into this place the best thing was figuring out I wasn't 'the only one', however. Like I said- just plain comforting.

Do take care,

Anni

 

[blueangel371115]

I was stressed from work and bills and the time. I was having flashbacks ( I slept 4-6hrs a night). I just wanted it to stop. I couldn't even go to work without feeling threatened. I was so confused and had no idea what was going on as I ignorantly felt PTSD was a military thing. But my dog saved my life. His love for me made me call the ambulance instead of give up.

 

[Iam]

I can see why....he is adorable, though he does look like he's flashing us LOL! "Hey baby, want some of this?" Sorry.....he's is just sooo darn cute ;)

I am sorry that you had to go thru feeling like that. I hope you are feeling better now. The lack of sleep that comes along with PTSD makes everything so much more difficult to handle......as if things aren't hard enough.

(((HUGS)))

 

[deer_in_headlights]

(((((((((BlueAngel)))))))))

I can see why you lived! What a wonderful dog! Is he a smooth-coated Jack Russell? He's adorable!
Animals have saved my life, too.

I'm glad you called the ambulance; and I'm glad you're here!
Love,
Deer

 

[blueangel371115]

actually he's a a Rat terrier. they have some similar foundation breeds. I like to think they are cousin breeds. I'm glad I'm here too. But thinking about that night hurts me. I feel guilty and angry and don't know how to deal with it.

 

[blueangel371115]

Had bad thoughts again last weekend. Kept looking at my window ( on the second story). I'm sorry guys, was weak for a moment. When my parents argue ( which is alot), I look at that window. More than once I have wanted to jump. I hate it.

 

[NIKI]

If you should look at that window in that way again, first take a look into the eyes of your adorable puppy. He needs you! Sometimes that's all you need to break that awful mood.

Peace, NIKI

 

[blueangel371115]

If you should look at that window in that way again, first take a look into the eyes of your adorable puppy. He needs you! Sometimes that's all you need to break that awful mood.

Peace, NIKI

you hit the nail right on the head and that's exactly what I did. I love that boy.