My Therapist Moved.

[stillstruggling]

About a month ago my therapist that I have been going to for a while moved his office. He only went about 10 miles away but it's in a small town. This town is known as a very liberal, artsy craftsy kind of place. Cafe's, gay bars, coffee shops, etc... His new building is shared with a very radical group of treehuggers.

A quick bit about me. I'm not in any way homophobic, and I'm fairly tolerant of lifestyles. However, I'm a farmer/logger outdoorsy type. I drive an old beat up truck that stands out.

I'm having a real hard time now going for my appointments. I get all worked up before hand. Part of it is because I hide my issues from people as best I can and I'm afraid someone will see me and ask what I'm doing there. I also have had run ins with the treehugger that shares his building before. He used to be my neighbor. I have gone so far as to threaten his life. And I meant it.

So now when I go I am already so over amped I can't calm down to deal with anything. I really like this therapist but I don't know if I'll keep going.

Any thoughts?

 

[kris]

It might be best to see someone else, on top of your ptsd issues you don't want to add the issue of seeing these people and having a confrontation or anything with them.

 

[stillstruggling]

Kris, thank you for your reply. I think for now I will continue with him. I have any appointment today and I am considering asking if we can meet somewhere other than his office.

On the up side, I just bought a "beater" car for commuting to work so at least my vehicle won't stand out in the parking lot. I don't know why I let that bother me so much except maybe that I don't want people to know I need help.

 

[seedling]

Yeah, talk about "exposure" therapy:)
Hard enough to deal with what you have to, let alone all these extras that come along for the ride.
Hope your session went well.

Hold your head up proud and walk like you own the place.

 

[stillstruggling]

Thank you. I went and I survived.

It was a joint appointment with my wife along. Those are always difficult. She's does her very best to help me. We're working on communicating right now.

Seedling, you hit it about right on the head. I could deal with someone snickering or giving me shit. It wouldn't be pretty but I could handle it. It's having someone know that I'm getting help that would really bother me.

I'll keep going though.

 

[seedling]

Good for you!
Made it through and on a day when your wife went with you as well.

Somehow, I can just picture this little town :)