laura horns
New Here
dating a veteran since july 2023.
first 3 months fantastic, now i am in hell.
i just found this forum and baaaam!!
now is all clear.
you guys..... is like i can breath again after months and months and months of grasping for air.
(sorry for my mistakes but i am from another country and writing is hard for me, but i have to release this weight).
now i get it that i am not too demanding.
now i get it that he is not an horrible man.
but what if i tell you that is too f*cking late to leave now?????
you d would tell me i am crazy.
he was able to read inside my soul.
i needed a man like him in my life.
i did think i won the lottery.
i thought finally God gave me back all the love that i gave to everybody in my life.
we could talk with no words.
where is he now????!!!?
if i ask to find him again, is war..... and i realized from this forum that was not the way.
if i go distant he gets pissed.
if a f*cking toxic rollercoaster.
how can i make sense of all this now??
everything that he told me...... plans for our life together..... feelings for me....was just love bombing???
or it was true but he just got lost in that rabbit hole????????????
first 3 months fantastic, now i am in hell.
i just found this forum and baaaam!!
now is all clear.
you guys..... is like i can breath again after months and months and months of grasping for air.
(sorry for my mistakes but i am from another country and writing is hard for me, but i have to release this weight).
now i get it that i am not too demanding.
now i get it that he is not an horrible man.
but what if i tell you that is too f*cking late to leave now?????
you d would tell me i am crazy.
he was able to read inside my soul.
i needed a man like him in my life.
i did think i won the lottery.
i thought finally God gave me back all the love that i gave to everybody in my life.
we could talk with no words.
where is he now????!!!?
if i ask to find him again, is war..... and i realized from this forum that was not the way.
if i go distant he gets pissed.
if a f*cking toxic rollercoaster.
how can i make sense of all this now??
everything that he told me...... plans for our life together..... feelings for me....was just love bombing???
or it was true but he just got lost in that rabbit hole????????????
