Hello everyone
I discovered this site on Friday and it's taken me a few days to pluck up the courage to sign up and post. I'm really rubbish with forums - i always cringe after posting (and usually never go back to it!) so here goes.
My therapist says i have CPTSD and after reading an article on here i really identify with the 'freeze' type and my brother (in my opinion) i would say has the 'fight' type. He was sectioned a couple of years ago (down to me) but he's very manipulative and with the help of my ridiculous dad he managed to get out on appeal without any meds or help or anything. The doctor told my mum that he has an unofficial diagnosis of NPD.
Anyway the long and short of it is my ridiculous mum let him back in her house and he is even worse than he was before he left. He completely controls her and goes into these rants or lectures where you have to sit and listen (for hours i kid you not). Youre not allowed to speak or ask questions. He is very aggressive and smashes the house up - two bedrooms are now uninhabitable now. He doesnt allow anyone to clean but has these mad OCDs. He also claims to talk with spirits and angels and fights with them when they lie and let him down (in my opinion it is his own subconscious he is battling with). On the other hand i can see he is this hurt little boy who has no control over his life (he's almost 30 and has never worked or had a relationship, doesn't go out, excessive weed smoking etc).
This is really hard to explain in a post but after 20 years of watching my mum be battered to pieces and our house demolished by my dad, i've now spent the next 10 years watching my brother do the same (he hasn't exactly hit her but has pushes her around and is threatening). I'm terrified of my brother more so than my dad now (dad's old i guess). My T says i've been re-traumatised. I'm that child again wondering if my mum will be dead in the morning.
I guess i want to know if there is anyone out there who can relate to this? I feel like i could be fine if it wasn't for this and want to move on - i'm not getting any younger! But i'm trapped. I've always been trapped. And apart from my T no one really understands. Over the years i've isolated myself - my 8 year relationship died as he couldn't take it anymore. I'm going to the doctor again about my bro next week - but i'm really bloody scared. I always do the wrong thing. help.
i'm sorry if i've poste3d in the wrong place i'm just pretty desperate right now. Thanks for listening and if you made to the end well done as i bore myself.
I discovered this site on Friday and it's taken me a few days to pluck up the courage to sign up and post. I'm really rubbish with forums - i always cringe after posting (and usually never go back to it!) so here goes.
My therapist says i have CPTSD and after reading an article on here i really identify with the 'freeze' type and my brother (in my opinion) i would say has the 'fight' type. He was sectioned a couple of years ago (down to me) but he's very manipulative and with the help of my ridiculous dad he managed to get out on appeal without any meds or help or anything. The doctor told my mum that he has an unofficial diagnosis of NPD.
Anyway the long and short of it is my ridiculous mum let him back in her house and he is even worse than he was before he left. He completely controls her and goes into these rants or lectures where you have to sit and listen (for hours i kid you not). Youre not allowed to speak or ask questions. He is very aggressive and smashes the house up - two bedrooms are now uninhabitable now. He doesnt allow anyone to clean but has these mad OCDs. He also claims to talk with spirits and angels and fights with them when they lie and let him down (in my opinion it is his own subconscious he is battling with). On the other hand i can see he is this hurt little boy who has no control over his life (he's almost 30 and has never worked or had a relationship, doesn't go out, excessive weed smoking etc).
This is really hard to explain in a post but after 20 years of watching my mum be battered to pieces and our house demolished by my dad, i've now spent the next 10 years watching my brother do the same (he hasn't exactly hit her but has pushes her around and is threatening). I'm terrified of my brother more so than my dad now (dad's old i guess). My T says i've been re-traumatised. I'm that child again wondering if my mum will be dead in the morning.
I guess i want to know if there is anyone out there who can relate to this? I feel like i could be fine if it wasn't for this and want to move on - i'm not getting any younger! But i'm trapped. I've always been trapped. And apart from my T no one really understands. Over the years i've isolated myself - my 8 year relationship died as he couldn't take it anymore. I'm going to the doctor again about my bro next week - but i'm really bloody scared. I always do the wrong thing. help.
i'm sorry if i've poste3d in the wrong place i'm just pretty desperate right now. Thanks for listening and if you made to the end well done as i bore myself.
