Hey,
For the past year and a half I have been suffering with crippling ptsd due to my estranged husbands attempted murder of me, my now fiance and his suicide which he carried out in front of me.
To make a long, painful story shorter, we were in the process of divorce and he broke into my house that I shared with our son. My now fiance and his two children would stay with us occassionally. In march of 2011, he broke in armed with a shot gun and a revolver both loaded with 6 additional bullets. My fiance had left the house shortly before but all three kids were sleeping, our son in the next room. He told me he was going to kill me, pointing a shotgun at my chest and I hid under the bed because that was the only place to hide in the room. He asked where my fiance was and if his children were there. I thankfully had my phone in my hand and dialed 911. I just kept repeating my address and begging for my life. He rambled on a few minutes and then shot himself at the foot of the bed with the revolver. My fiance beat the police home and found us both.
As you can imagine, I still suffer with this every single day. To make matters worse, my ex-in laws blame me for his death and are in denial of what he did to us. They just want to live their son's memory through my son, which is wrong...dragging us all to court. It seems never ending and that no one around me can possibly understand what I experienced and how I think about things now.
I have been to 5 counselors the past two years and a partial in patient treatment program. Everything helps a little but nothing ever makes it all go away. I just want to get on with my life for myself and my family.
Thanks for listening.
For the past year and a half I have been suffering with crippling ptsd due to my estranged husbands attempted murder of me, my now fiance and his suicide which he carried out in front of me.
To make a long, painful story shorter, we were in the process of divorce and he broke into my house that I shared with our son. My now fiance and his two children would stay with us occassionally. In march of 2011, he broke in armed with a shot gun and a revolver both loaded with 6 additional bullets. My fiance had left the house shortly before but all three kids were sleeping, our son in the next room. He told me he was going to kill me, pointing a shotgun at my chest and I hid under the bed because that was the only place to hide in the room. He asked where my fiance was and if his children were there. I thankfully had my phone in my hand and dialed 911. I just kept repeating my address and begging for my life. He rambled on a few minutes and then shot himself at the foot of the bed with the revolver. My fiance beat the police home and found us both.
As you can imagine, I still suffer with this every single day. To make matters worse, my ex-in laws blame me for his death and are in denial of what he did to us. They just want to live their son's memory through my son, which is wrong...dragging us all to court. It seems never ending and that no one around me can possibly understand what I experienced and how I think about things now.
I have been to 5 counselors the past two years and a partial in patient treatment program. Everything helps a little but nothing ever makes it all go away. I just want to get on with my life for myself and my family.
Thanks for listening.
