Hello!
My name is Kiro, I'm 17 years old. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD after being admitted into a hospital for a suicide attempt (2 weeks ago, to be exact). Also diagnosed with MDD, anxiety, and BPD. I only recently started receiving help but I've been depressed/suicidal since I was 12 years old. I was kind of shocked when I was told I had chronic PTSD because I always associated it with only soldiers having it (gosh darn stigmas). I was in denial for a bit but I've come to terms with it and started creeping this forum before finally making an account yesterday.
I was a happy camper when I was younger and lived in Jamaica. When I was 8 years old though, my babysitter who lived with us at the time while my Mom was overseas murdered my Father within my own home. Me and my siblings discovered his body and called 911. The babysitter was on the run for years but finally was caught this year. After the event took place, I moved to America with my family. We never talked about what happened within my family and my Mom never got help either. She had difficulty dealing with her emotions and took it out on us. She became physically/emotionally abusive especially to me. I also witnessed abuse that she took out on my other siblings and her boyfriends when they had fights. I think a lot of this contributed to me developing PTSD because I never talked to anyone or dealt with my pain (only through self harm). After my attempt, my Mom realized how detrimental her actions were to my health and has started to try and be a better person for our family. I have a lot of resentment built up towards her, but in order for me to be happy I need to at least try and improve our relationship the best I can. If she does end up falling back into old habits, I've made a personal pact to myself to shut her completely from my life.
I have pretty bad abandonment fears/attachment issues that I'm trying to work on. I've been able to reduce some of my symptoms by taking prazosin to stop my nightmares which helps LOADS. Mood stabilizers help a lot too.
Anyways... is this how intros go? I don't even know, man. I have a tendency to overshare. So far everyone on this forum seems super nice! Everyone has gone through such different things but it fills me with strength and determination when I see how strong everyone else is. You're all awesome whether you realize it or not and I'm proud of you all for still being here!
My name is Kiro, I'm 17 years old. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD after being admitted into a hospital for a suicide attempt (2 weeks ago, to be exact). Also diagnosed with MDD, anxiety, and BPD. I only recently started receiving help but I've been depressed/suicidal since I was 12 years old. I was kind of shocked when I was told I had chronic PTSD because I always associated it with only soldiers having it (gosh darn stigmas). I was in denial for a bit but I've come to terms with it and started creeping this forum before finally making an account yesterday.
I was a happy camper when I was younger and lived in Jamaica. When I was 8 years old though, my babysitter who lived with us at the time while my Mom was overseas murdered my Father within my own home. Me and my siblings discovered his body and called 911. The babysitter was on the run for years but finally was caught this year. After the event took place, I moved to America with my family. We never talked about what happened within my family and my Mom never got help either. She had difficulty dealing with her emotions and took it out on us. She became physically/emotionally abusive especially to me. I also witnessed abuse that she took out on my other siblings and her boyfriends when they had fights. I think a lot of this contributed to me developing PTSD because I never talked to anyone or dealt with my pain (only through self harm). After my attempt, my Mom realized how detrimental her actions were to my health and has started to try and be a better person for our family. I have a lot of resentment built up towards her, but in order for me to be happy I need to at least try and improve our relationship the best I can. If she does end up falling back into old habits, I've made a personal pact to myself to shut her completely from my life.
I have pretty bad abandonment fears/attachment issues that I'm trying to work on. I've been able to reduce some of my symptoms by taking prazosin to stop my nightmares which helps LOADS. Mood stabilizers help a lot too.
Anyways... is this how intros go? I don't even know, man. I have a tendency to overshare. So far everyone on this forum seems super nice! Everyone has gone through such different things but it fills me with strength and determination when I see how strong everyone else is. You're all awesome whether you realize it or not and I'm proud of you all for still being here!
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