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[cat]

Hello - I'm new. I've recently started remembering sexual abuse by my father. I forgot it for a long time but, now I've remembered, it's not really a surprise. It's like I knew all along and just kind of put it out of my mind somehow.

I'm in therapy but haven't been able to talk much about the CSA yet. I joined this forum because I just really need to get my story out somewhere, somehow.

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi Cat. Welcome to the forum.

Take your time to have a good look round the forum, then post when you are ready. As much or as little as you are able.

That's got to be tough, having all those memories resurfacing. We're here, ready to listen.

Welcome :wave:

 

[cat]

Thank you.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Cat and welcome to the forum.

When my memories came to light the whole thing came tumbling down on me at once. I am pleased to hear you are in therapy. I really don't think you can work through these things alone. It is like T walks the journey of recovery with you holding your hand and walking by your side.

I never have told T much detail about my abuse. He said it wasn't necessary. The important bit is to process the memories so it takes away the power they hold over you. Dealing with the feelings and emotion it throws up is very difficult, but it does feel good to be getting better and see the progress. There are always hiccups along the way but your T will help you deal with those.

Best wishes,
Lucy x

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[bluebell2]

Hi Cat welcome to the forum :)

Post whatever you feel like sharing, whenever you are ready

Take Care

 

[cat]

When my memories came to light the whole thing came tumbling down on me at once.

That really describes how I'm feeling right now. My T has said the same thing about not having to share details, but I'm quite hung up on details and remembering the exact truth, and quite frustrated by the fact that I kind of can't. I have a lot of snapshots, fragments, etc, but very few complete memories.

Thank you everybody for the welcome. It's really appreciated.

 

[rainbow1]

Hi Cat, welcome to the forum.

I understand the need to remember the exact truth - I find it really upsetting when I get the details mixed up or can't remember. But, T is helping me see that the details aren't important its dealing with the emotions and feelings that is. It's good that you have a T and are getting support. I hope being here helps too.