naturebaby_85
Bronze Member
I'm new to this.. so am a little unsure how it all works! but am slowly starting to learn... it's nearly impossible to heal PTSD and sex abuse alone without a support network.
I'm 28 years of old and have been struggling with complex PTSD for over a year now, although it seems a lot longer! it was through uncovering infidelity last year that I recalled my brother sexually abusing me when i was a child (For the very first time) that I believe is the trauma that sparked PTSD.
It's a confusing journey, some days I don't know whether it's the infidelity, the child sex abuse or the PTSD that's the cause of my pain and despair.
I thought it'd be a great idea to hear from you all on your own journey's, my biggest battle is dealing with triggers.. I"m yet to master my mind in not allowing stupid triggers to invade my mind and dictate my behaviours that follow.. I think iti's going to take a whole lot more practice (and patience), perhaps even time, before I can get to that place.
What are you all finding works the best when tackling triggers? or mood swings etc? are there any therapists or types of therapy that you have found particularly useful?
I have so many questions I could ask! but I'll leave it at that for now!
I really hoped that someone out there might be dealing with the same things - infidelity and child sex abuse. I just find it so overwhelming and would love to be able to talk to someone who relates.
I'm with the partner who was unfaithful and have been trying to work things out but whilst he's doing all that be can - I just can't seem to feel what I need to feel, or forgive, or even feel close to loving him again.
I'm so confused, I don't know whether it's the ptsd and recent discovery of child abuse playing its part.. I have so much hate and anger at partner for betraying me sexually but struggle to tap into that emotion in regards to what my brother did.
Confused. Overwhelmed.
I grieve for the old me, now I just feel like a empty shell.
Hope to hear from you,
Thanks for reading my post,
N
I'm 28 years of old and have been struggling with complex PTSD for over a year now, although it seems a lot longer! it was through uncovering infidelity last year that I recalled my brother sexually abusing me when i was a child (For the very first time) that I believe is the trauma that sparked PTSD.
It's a confusing journey, some days I don't know whether it's the infidelity, the child sex abuse or the PTSD that's the cause of my pain and despair.
I thought it'd be a great idea to hear from you all on your own journey's, my biggest battle is dealing with triggers.. I"m yet to master my mind in not allowing stupid triggers to invade my mind and dictate my behaviours that follow.. I think iti's going to take a whole lot more practice (and patience), perhaps even time, before I can get to that place.
What are you all finding works the best when tackling triggers? or mood swings etc? are there any therapists or types of therapy that you have found particularly useful?
I have so many questions I could ask! but I'll leave it at that for now!
I really hoped that someone out there might be dealing with the same things - infidelity and child sex abuse. I just find it so overwhelming and would love to be able to talk to someone who relates.
I'm with the partner who was unfaithful and have been trying to work things out but whilst he's doing all that be can - I just can't seem to feel what I need to feel, or forgive, or even feel close to loving him again.
I'm so confused, I don't know whether it's the ptsd and recent discovery of child abuse playing its part.. I have so much hate and anger at partner for betraying me sexually but struggle to tap into that emotion in regards to what my brother did.
Confused. Overwhelmed.
I grieve for the old me, now I just feel like a empty shell.
Hope to hear from you,
Thanks for reading my post,
N
