Hi,
I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD, depression, and anxiety disorder.
My problems really began when I was 19 and involved in a fatal car accident in March 1990. While driving to school with a friend a car pulled into an intersection and I swerved to the left to go around the car not realizing there was an oncoming car. I hit the other car head on killing the two women in the other car. I can still see the drivers body. Her name was Rosemary. She was partially ejected. I see the green antifreeze flowing down the asphalt. I can still feel the gritt of broken glass in my mouth. It doesn't go away.
After the accident I never spoke of it to anyone including my family. I essentially buried it. And kept it buried. It was only brought up in the context of court appearances or attorney meetings.
I essentially kept it buried for years. About 4 years later my dad developed demensia/Alzheimers. Since I was the youngest and still lived at home, I and my mom were his care givers. This occupied my thoughts. It finally became overwhelming for us so we had dad placed in a nursing home in 1999. It was too much. During this time of calm I had a horrible time. Without having the distraction of taking care of my dad, the memories of the accident began to come back.
I had night terrors, night seats, flashbacks, crying spells, severe depression, and a suicide attempt. Then about a year and a half after my dad went into a nursing home my mom was diagnosed with cancer. Still living with her, I became my mom's care giver. I was once again distracted by another crisis. She was diagnosed in January 2001 and my dad passed away in December that year.
I continued helping my mom until she went in remission in summer 2004. It was then that my sister was diagnosed with cancer and I took on the role of care giver once again. My mom looked after her children and I would take her to her medical appointments, run errands for her. When my sister's cancerous tumor was removed and cancer was no longer detected, my mom's cancer returned. I was back to being her care giver until she died in December 2006.
It took me a long time to deal with my mother's death as we were very close. After I got past the worst of the grief of losing my mother, the ghosts of the accident began to resurface. It got to the point early last year that I started to have suicidal thoughts and planned my suicide.
I reached out to a coworker who pushed me into therapy. It has gotten better but not good enough. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, and Depression. My therapist has tried to persuade me to take anti-depressants but I have resisted. Until now.
I have recently been through a rough period in January and today was prescribed Xanax and Celexa. Has anyone had experience with these meds? Any advice or suggestions are greatly appreciated.
Thanks
I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD, depression, and anxiety disorder.
My problems really began when I was 19 and involved in a fatal car accident in March 1990. While driving to school with a friend a car pulled into an intersection and I swerved to the left to go around the car not realizing there was an oncoming car. I hit the other car head on killing the two women in the other car. I can still see the drivers body. Her name was Rosemary. She was partially ejected. I see the green antifreeze flowing down the asphalt. I can still feel the gritt of broken glass in my mouth. It doesn't go away.
After the accident I never spoke of it to anyone including my family. I essentially buried it. And kept it buried. It was only brought up in the context of court appearances or attorney meetings.
I essentially kept it buried for years. About 4 years later my dad developed demensia/Alzheimers. Since I was the youngest and still lived at home, I and my mom were his care givers. This occupied my thoughts. It finally became overwhelming for us so we had dad placed in a nursing home in 1999. It was too much. During this time of calm I had a horrible time. Without having the distraction of taking care of my dad, the memories of the accident began to come back.
I had night terrors, night seats, flashbacks, crying spells, severe depression, and a suicide attempt. Then about a year and a half after my dad went into a nursing home my mom was diagnosed with cancer. Still living with her, I became my mom's care giver. I was once again distracted by another crisis. She was diagnosed in January 2001 and my dad passed away in December that year.
I continued helping my mom until she went in remission in summer 2004. It was then that my sister was diagnosed with cancer and I took on the role of care giver once again. My mom looked after her children and I would take her to her medical appointments, run errands for her. When my sister's cancerous tumor was removed and cancer was no longer detected, my mom's cancer returned. I was back to being her care giver until she died in December 2006.
It took me a long time to deal with my mother's death as we were very close. After I got past the worst of the grief of losing my mother, the ghosts of the accident began to resurface. It got to the point early last year that I started to have suicidal thoughts and planned my suicide.
I reached out to a coworker who pushed me into therapy. It has gotten better but not good enough. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, and Depression. My therapist has tried to persuade me to take anti-depressants but I have resisted. Until now.
I have recently been through a rough period in January and today was prescribed Xanax and Celexa. Has anyone had experience with these meds? Any advice or suggestions are greatly appreciated.
Thanks