Hello, I was diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, depression and I am disabled with Fibromyalgia. I have seen many therapists over the years but they were not the right fit. I have tried every medication you can think of, but I have extremely bad reactions to them all. I finally found a great therapist and for the first time started moving forward with my life, but it seems with every step forward, I take 20 more back. I am hoping that by joining this site and sharing, that I may be able to get the support to keep moving forward.
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KwanYingirl
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Yep, I identify with you. I'm glad you have a better therapist. Welcome to the forum
Good for you for finding a great therapist! Sometimes I feel like that too. But then I realized that after what I think are 10 steps back, they turn into 10 "leaps" forward.
Stay strong, be gentle with yourself in this process and do not let your mind tell you that you are "stuck" or "moving backward." Never listen to a tired mind or a depressed mind. It's lying to you.
Know that everything that happens on this healing process is okay and it is bringing you that much closer to healing. Know it. Every time you move back, you gain that much more strength to move rapidly foward toward your "authentic and healed self" that is waiting for you. You will heal from this Spin 1005. Welcome to the forum. Warmest, Rising
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@Spin1005 Welcome to the forum!
The right therapist can make all the difference in recovery as does having a support system/group. I hope you find the support and encouragement from the members here beneficial to your healing.
The right therapist can make all the difference in recovery as does having a support system/group. I hope you find the support and encouragement from the members here beneficial to your healing.
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Thank you to all of you as I DO appreciate the warm welcome. Today I had to leave a job that I would have loved to keep had it not been for the boss/director of the program. I got contracted as an art instructor at a grant based program to teach watercolors to children and only got to work 2 days before the s@#& hit the fan. The woman got extremely volatile with me, had none of the supplies promised and on top of it, didn't even compensate me for all the hours worked.
I think the her way of talking to me and the way she had slammed one of the children's pieces of art into my arm, while exclaiming that quote "No one ELSE seems to have a problem with our supplies", felt like the perpetrations of my past abuser. It made me shake and feel like I had to go into protection mode. I hate the feelings of confrontation, especially when I know I am doing nothing to provoke it. I stay away from those types of situations so of course, I had to quit. I am crying as I write these words. It makes me so extremely sad that I was treated that way and don't understand sometimes how I seem targeted for abuse from people.
I wish I could have just gone to work, taught the kids and had been given the respect that I gave. I have been on disability for over 17 years as I suffered brain damage from being in an abusive relationship. I also ended up developing Fibromyalgia among multiple old injuries and of course all the psychological issues I have. I was so happy to be able to work and at a dream job (or so I thought) without any training but my own self-education. Now that is gone and I am feeling so bummed out. The only thing that I can say was good was that I stood up for myself by resigning. In the past I would have kept taking it. I hope all my other prospects go well. I just took a bondman course then my state boards and I passed! Yay!
Sorry for the extremely long post, just wanted to express the days events and say thanks. Should I be posting all this under another subject?
I think the her way of talking to me and the way she had slammed one of the children's pieces of art into my arm, while exclaiming that quote "No one ELSE seems to have a problem with our supplies", felt like the perpetrations of my past abuser. It made me shake and feel like I had to go into protection mode. I hate the feelings of confrontation, especially when I know I am doing nothing to provoke it. I stay away from those types of situations so of course, I had to quit. I am crying as I write these words. It makes me so extremely sad that I was treated that way and don't understand sometimes how I seem targeted for abuse from people.
I wish I could have just gone to work, taught the kids and had been given the respect that I gave. I have been on disability for over 17 years as I suffered brain damage from being in an abusive relationship. I also ended up developing Fibromyalgia among multiple old injuries and of course all the psychological issues I have. I was so happy to be able to work and at a dream job (or so I thought) without any training but my own self-education. Now that is gone and I am feeling so bummed out. The only thing that I can say was good was that I stood up for myself by resigning. In the past I would have kept taking it. I hope all my other prospects go well. I just took a bondman course then my state boards and I passed! Yay!
Sorry for the extremely long post, just wanted to express the days events and say thanks. Should I be posting all this under another subject?
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@Spin1005
There are a lot of sections in the forum, and you may want to familiarize yourself with them. There is a place for trauma diaries and a section for Employment and Education. There is information about the purpose of each section and that should help you navigate as you interact with the other members here.
There are a lot of sections in the forum, and you may want to familiarize yourself with them. There is a place for trauma diaries and a section for Employment and Education. There is information about the purpose of each section and that should help you navigate as you interact with the other members here.
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