Sufferer Newly Diagnosed And Missing My Therapist

[Missingmytherapist]

Hi all, I have been in treatment for depression and anxiety for many years but have recently been diagnosed with PTSD (when I revealed my history of childhood sexual, physical and emotional abuse) and started talking about the effects it has had on me. My therapist is on vacation. She is super-reliable, told me about it at least a month ago and is only gone for a week but I'm feeling so lost without her. I contacted her cover to ask if she accepted my insurance but she doesn't. I could pay out of pocket but I feel embarrassed about needing help with such a short vacation and she is supposed to cover only urgent matters and I'm not sure I fall into that category. Anyway, I'm hoping to find a support network of people who might get it. PS. I can't sleep without taking my maximum dose of anti-anxiety pills and sleeping tablets along with alcohol which makes me nervous.

 

[mrsps]

I know how you feel with missing your therapist. For me my T is the only person that I can talk about all the deep and meaningful stuff. I have formed a really strong bond with her and she is really kind and gentle. Its ok to miss your T.
Can you find something you enjoy doing to get through while your T is away. Do some writing, whether you show your T or not it doesn't matter. Write stuff down as if you are talking to her, write down that you miss her etc (you don't have to show her what you have written) I feel that writing helps, sometimes I show my T sometimes I don't it just helps me stay connected with her.
Take care :)

 

[intothelight]

Welcome! :)

Losing support, even when there is fore knowledge and for a short period, can be frightening. Just take it one day at a time and this forum is a great place to find additional support.

 

[Missingmytherapist]

Thank you for these kind responses. I think the hardest thing is that I don't usually form deep attachments. I have friends and I'm married but I really value my independence and self-reliance. It scares me that I'm so dependent on her that she can hurt me (especially just by taking a well-earned rest).

I am writing a lot. I'm taking the times I would be in session to write and, I agree, it does help. I kind of hope I can get over it without having to tell her how I've been feeling because I'm not looking forward to admitting how much her vacation has thrown me.