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Just a short thread. It is something my good friend and I have noticed and we're both really happy about it. She and I are noticing that I've started to become more relaxed with her. I'm very slowly coming out with her, I can eat a good amount of food around her, flinching has now become not as common. It's not rare, but it's getting there. I now have time to think to myself as she moves or reaches toward me unlike when I flinch, it's an automatic response. I think she knew what she was doing when she spent a good amount of time physically touching me whether it be snuggling, sitting very close, letting me lean again her, and she would lean against me(when I wasn't in physical pain), she would reach over to rest her hand on my shoulder or to hug me, and everything she did was always a positive thing. Once in a while she would reach over to get or adjust something and I would flinch to the sound or feeling of the movement, but not to her and I'm really happy about that.. Of course it's only to her. I have a hard time relaxing and eating around other people and I still flinch and over react to other things, but to me this is a huge step. Flinching is exhausting and I don't want to do it. I want to be able to relax while I'm around her and it seems like I'm starting to. :D
