Not Able To Cover My Bills - Vent

[KP the nut]

So pleased for you. It is often best to come clean and not avoid talking. Good tenants are hard to find and even some rent this month with the rest to follow is better than him receiving nothing. I do know how scary it is to not have enough money for basic bills.
((HUGS))

 

[mamachick]

So glad it is resolved and you can relax a bit now. I know the dread of the not knowing and that hanging over my head. Happy for your resolution.

 

[Reclusive]

Well, that's just the first half of it. Next I have to earn the money that I didn't earn last month, but at least I have a month to do it in. I've been in bed almost all day - I think the stress really got to me. I slept from about 3am - 6pm, got up for an hour or so, and then right back to bed, now up again. Going to head back to bed in a couple minutes.

 

[Nicolette]

Hang in there Reclusive. I wish I could offer some help........ I have been reading but nothing I can say will make you feel better until you get back on your feet financially. Wishing you much success and minimal PTSD symptoms so you can achieve that.

 

[Reclusive]

I failed at going back to bed. Thank you for the well-wishes, though. Right now I'm feeling better about things - I like to have a loose plan in place, that always makes me feel better, so I'm doing okay right now. They're paving my street Monday and Tuesday, so I'm not going anywhere lest I get tar on the driveway, so that's kinda nice. I'm actually doing much better now, just dealing with the stress fall out.

This is going to sound dopey, but I kinda feel like this was partly the Universe reminding me of what I'm really passionate about and what I'm supposed to be doing, because I really feel my purpose is tied to what I do for work. I'm terrified, but excited, because I made a couple decisions and have received some positive universal feedback as a result, so I'm actually in a really good place - just tired. :D

 

[anni]

I don't think it sounds in the least dopey, Reclusive! The Universe is always having to poke me in the head ( or somewhere else ) to get me back to where I'm supposed to be. You seem to have listened before it had to throw a bucket of water over over you. :)

 

[Kintsugi]

This is going to sound dopey, but I kinda feel like this was partly the Universe reminding me of what I'm really passionate about and what I'm supposed to be doing, because I really feel my purpose is tied to what I do for work.

That doesn't sound dopey. I'm very happy for you. If I did not have writing, I may not be alive right now. In the worst of times, I have looked to my work for meaning and fulfillment, because it truly brings me joy.

Rest easy for a couple of days and do what you love when you're rested.

 

[Reclusive]

No, Anni, I'm pretty sure not being able to pay my rent counts as a bucket of water. But I've always been pretty thick-headed - I get that from my mother. I like to consider one of my better qualities. :P

No rest for the wicked, I'm afraid. The fiance is sick and acting like a baby - needs attention constantly and all I want to do is sleep. But I'm sure in another couple days it'll all be different again.