Sufferer Not Alone, Feel Alone

[Rosewater]

Hello, I have just joined as this looks like a friendly and supportive place to be.

A month ago I was diagnosed with PTSD with a connected adjustment disorder. It all stems from a road traffic accident a year ago and various aggravating events that happened during my medical care and return to work. Frankly, the diagnosis was a relief as it has allowed me to start making sense of what I have been going through ever since the accident. That said, most of the time everything still seems very confusing and it's hard to understand or believe the situation I'm in.

My treatment seems to be going well (therapy and Valdoxan) but I feel very alone most of the time. I've been signed off from work and have a lot of time alone, or trying to have "good experiences" to help my recovery. I was never any good at being told to have fun though!

One thing I've realised is how hard it is for people to understand what PTSD is like if it hasn't happened to them. It's hard enough for me to understand it a lot of the time, except in the odd moments when I can think clearly or with perspective. It's been shocking to realise how extreme my anxiety has been and how much I was disassociating until very recently.

So, I thought I would say hello and try to join the community here. I hope to be able to add something, as well as finding some good advice and support.

Thanks for reading :)

 

[MysticRose]

Hi, welcome here! I hope you will find the support here that you are looking for. As for the lonely feeling, I can relate to this. It's a battle that you have to win alone, but remember that there are a lot of people standing next to you whilst you do this. It won't make you feel less lonely, but it's a reminder to tell yourself every now and then.

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Hi and welcome, sorry to hear about your accident and the events leading up to been diagnosed with Ptsd. For me I felt like the loneliest person ever and no one understood me as you rightly said it was so hard for me to understand. After returning to work after been off was so difficult , but better because I am surrounded by people which makes my anxiety a lot better to cope. But then I came across this forum and I felt all my prayers had been answered because I was surrounded by people who understand me, listen to me, respect me Nd don't judge me. As I read other threads I could understand more as I thought that's how I feel, or that's what happened to me etc . And for the first time I felt safe as I was surrounded by strangers who became my friends . So please don't worry , it's an amazing forum for you to be able to offload, and everyone is so supportive . Your journey will start to get easier, no matter how difficult it is at the moment, and for me personally I don't think anyone that doesn't have Ptsd could ever understand me, because they do t experience the flashbacks and disassociate like us sufferers do, so from one sufferer to another, chin up, and welcome to a place of safety X

 

[Rosewater]

Thank you both for the welcome.

It's been a very difficult week & It's left me feeling lower than ever now. It drives me mad that I can be making good progress and then be thrown back so far into "just wanting it all to stop" and all that goes with it. My work situation is very toxic & it's hard for almost everyone round me to understand what the torment is like. It was easier for them when I was smashed up with broken bones for a couple of months. At least they could see what was wrong then.

Looking around the forum I can see a lot of people writing about the exact same things I'm feeling. It's very helpful to see that and realise this is not "me" but something that's happening to me, even though it's completely horrible and makes we want to run away forever. This forum looks like a very valuable resource,& I hope I can contribute to it as well as receive from it.

 

[intothelight]

@Rosewater Welcome to the forum!

It is easier for people to understand physical trauma than mental. That is what makes this forum so valuable as the members here really do understand. With work and time, things do get better and I hope you find this site helpful as you work on healing.