Not Knowing Where Feelings Come From

[Meadowsweet]

Sometimes I get feelings and I can relate to them to the source, often in trauma and past events. But then there's this feeling that I can't trace.

It doesn't feel like confusion, it feels like there is a blind spot, or something solid that obscures the view and stops me finding the source of this feeling. It frightens me and i hate it.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Are you having emotional flashbacks? Because it sounds like that. I recognize them when I overreact to something hurtful to me. It is very much having a blindness because I cannot trace it back to the source.

Sounds like a great topic to discuss with your therapist. I hope you find the answers you seek. This is just my opinion and please toss it if it does not work for you.

 

[Meadowsweet]

I don't really understand emotional flashbacks. Maybe. It does feel like the emotion is there, but what it's attached to is out of reach. It maybe that it's part of a memory that is better staying out of reach, I've had enough trauma memories and don't need anymore.

But it might be that it is one of those feelings that can't be pin-pointed to a specific event and is more generic.

It's a feeling that connects to the feeling of isolation, and a little while ago I wrote about feeling like a non-existant person, and this feeling was felt then too. But i can't put my finger on what it is.

 

[libbyjane]

I'm the same. There are situations that enrage me or make me panic and I really wish that I wouldn't get that worked up. I can't identify exactly why it makes me feel that way, just that it is a problem. I've never understood the "flashback" phenomenon to cases of PTSD like mine (type II trauma stemming from ongoing cumulative harm in childhood). I don't get literal images/visions/sounds, linking to the past. Just I get extremely worked up and I don't know why.