Sufferer Not okay today - multiple traumas & si looking for advice.

[Amy/River/Lili]

I'm not from around here, and I don't know anyone here(besides my partner), and I don't know what to do. I'm having a really hard day. We're having a really hard day. We're closing in on our 10 yearmark of our last"horrific" trauma, and we haven't had more than a year between severe to catastrophic traumas, at times several a month, every month.

We are so alone and scared and Washington has not been friendly to broken savant. We're trying so hard to hold on...our family is a part of our trauma and they abandoned us long ago.
We don't feel we have a place in this world, and we don't know how to create one. We're so lost and scared and triggered and we don't want to be anymore today.

We're not suicidal. The last thing we want is to SURVIVE another trauma, much less one that we created.

And we always survive.

We never thought we'd start sliding into how much better the world would be without us.... we don't know how to get out of this place.

Can anyone offer some advice?

 

[Amy_River_Lili]

And we figured it out. Talk. Deep breaths. Hold my partner and let my partner hold me. Let him in. Let him be strong so that I don't have to. Let myself heal. And one day at a time that's how we'll make it.

 

[Freida]

Talk. Deep breaths. Hold my partner and let my partner hold me. Let him in. Let him be strong so that I don't have to. Let myself heal.

that is a great start! Having each other means you have a family - its just a small one. But it can get bigger - you can choose who you want to be in it. Can you do counseling? It's a pretty lame answer, but it really does help. In the meantime, poke around this site - you will find lots of people who can relate to what you are going thru!

 

[ladee]

Welcome! And that is a Good start!
This forum is full of information, experiences you Will relate to, suggestions and a lot of support.
Happy you reached out and let us know you are here.

 

[Amy_River_Lili]

that is a great start! Having each other means you have a family - its just a small one. But it can get...

Thank you Frieda! Counseling has helped, we're finally reaching a place and a counselor where we can really open up and heal. We have a session this Friday, and I'm practicing the tools we've gained there...this is just a very hard time of year? And the first trigger season where my brain went to suicidal ideation. That's a scary place, especially for us... we don't want that.
Thank you again for your support!

Welcome! And that is a Good start!
This forum is full of information, experiences you Will relate to, sug...

Thank you!