Not Sure If I Have Ptsd.

[Wing]

I am new and might be a sufferer, I am not sure how to heal, been home since DEC 10, filled for divorce Jun 11 wife of 18 yrs.

A drunk, did not handle finances or the kids 13,17 boys, they are great. Between work, home divorce,reserve drilling and wrecked finances.

I am a bit overwhelmed second deployment in 36mo. Too much I think it was for me, some insight would be cool I have a VA appt. in a few days, not up to be medicated just want to feel normal/good again.

 

[Nighthawk]

Hi
I would have to say not knowing if you have PTSD would be the first step. I am glad you have an appointment and if they attempt meds stand up for yourself. I hope that they will be able to give you some insight into how you are feeling. I am not really sure from what you wrote what you are dealing with but only a Dr. can determine your diagnosis,

Wishing you the best. Please keep us informed.

NH

 

[TLight]

Wish the best.

All I have to say is that even through years of denial, the disorder is so horrific and makes life miserable, well, you know you have PTSD when you have PTSD. The somatic memories, the anxiety, the nightmares, the dissociation, the feeling when under triggers or stress that you are totally going to lose it. The physical pains, the horrible drepression.

I really think that you know you have it, or BiPolar, or whatever.

Get to a doc. ps...meds are the only things that help me in the slightest. Works for some, doesn't for others.

Good luck.

 

[Gamereign555]

You should get started with a trauma therapist, they will be able to make the diagnosis also, and you will be in the right place to get the help you need. Self diagnosis is not an option...

 

[Wing]

I don't quite know what too do or where I am at today tough weekend too much work both at home and job I am a bit overwhelmed with obligations I would like some down time but feel as if I am running away from reality too much me time is bad as my mind wanders to bad places I am not sure what to do my boys are awesome but the challenge of single parenting fighting with the ex and trying to put Afghanistan in perspective are really taking a toll I like the solitude of riding my motorcycle but half the time it heals me the other half I ride so hard it might kill me I am going back to see doc this week at the VA no meds yet and I would just as soon not I cant handle not having full control of myself wether from prescribed or other wise I just cant seem to find and maintain a grip on a middle ground between yes I am going to get through this or no it is too much for my head I cant take it there seems to be no middle ground everyday is a roller coaster ride and it really sucks sometimes waking up I know it is a bad day right out of the gate other days all it takes is the ride to work alome with my thoughts to wreck it I just cant seem to get a grip

 

[Srain]

Welcome Wing :)

I'm sorry you are going through so much right now, it's a lot, no doubt. I don't know if you are aware but this site also offers the Combat Site

PTSD COMBAT

you might want to check it out as well.

Nobody can force medications on you and really the best form of treatment at this point might be a little down time and someone that is qualified and trained from how it sounds, but that's just my opinion.

Having PTSD doesn't automatically mean medication as you will find out. It's quite complex and individualized. Everyone is very different here and yet we shared quite a bit in different ways.

It's nice meeting you. It's obvious you love your kids, I bet they are really great!

peace,
Rain

 

[Wing]

Thank you for the input