Obsessions

[Salu]

I do obsess over rather small things. For example if I´m reading a book before going to sleep I need a sentence that ends with a letter "a" to stop reading and put the book down. When I get out of bed I need to put my right foot down first and I tend to double and triple check things like if I really did lock the door and closed water and I have went back the whole way just to make sure if I did something. Otherwise it´s just going to bother me the whole day.

I have a very hard time giving up something old an familiar and start using new things like shoes and clothes or changing a display picture on my cell or computer - I feel like its not allowed and by doing so I somehow insult the given item and something bad will happen. :poke:
Nothing really big that would drastically influence my life, just those small annoying things.

 

[Robyn]

One of mine is smoking, or to be more specific, not smoking. And I'm talking regular over-the-counter cigarettes here guys :)

Both of my parents died of lung cancer. Both were diagnosed AFTER they quit smoking. I have an acknowledged irrational fear that the body gets used to the tobacco and will begin searching and eating itself for the stockpiles of nicotine and tar, which causes the cancer. I know it's stupid and irrational, but there have been many times that I've actually wanted to quit smoking (and even gave them up for weeks at a time) only to go right back to them. When I feel the craving for a cigarette, I think it's a warning sign.

I'm the same way about surgery. My dad got worse after his surgery to remove a portion of his lung. The cancer spread. The same happened to my husband's father. So I fear that exposure to air speeds up the growth. My PTSD husband has the same fear.

I was nineteen when my father died, I'm now 47, you'd think I'd have outgrown those fears by now in the face of evidence to the contrary.

 

[midi]

Does anyone think that obsessing over these things provides people with a sense of security?

 

[jennifer0506]

My obsession is my boyfriend. i feel angry when he has to go to friends, abandoned, and jealous.
Another obsession is conspiracy theories. I obsess over finding out the same thing over and over again.
And i obsess over having to be in complete darkness in sleep. The curtains have to be closed just right, all lights around me have to be off, i have to have an eyepatch but if the light coming in from the eyepatch is different i feel strangely out of place and annoyed.
And i obsess over needing sound. I hate silence. Silence frightens me, so i fidget, turn the tv on, play music. Anything.
and i have to have a shower everyday. if i dont have it in the morning i have it at night. even when ill.

to be honest, i think everyone has an obsession, i know no one who doesn't have atleast one.

 

[trial'n'error]

I've had enough obsessions to be diagnosed with OCD in the past, but Hollow, yours sounds like it might be self-sabotage trying to rear its ugly head... if you absolutely love your husband and life why do you think you are obsessing over another person? Is it "the grass is greener", an attempt at self-sabotage, or a true attraction which you just have to live with? I'm saying this as a person who's been through much self-sabotage, perhaps you should examine your thoughts and feelings around this person more closely. Peace,
trial'n'error