Hello all. My name is Aaron and i have served 14 years in the Army and National Guard. Was deployed to Kabul Afghanistan in 2005-2006 assigned to a SECFOR unit providing convoy security on a gun truck. Shortly after coming home I was diagnosed with PTSD. I have had a hell of a time since. Been in a few scrapes, lost a friend there, witnessed the murder of a child as they tried to kill us. Hard things to shake, not looking for sympathy, just undrstanding and support. I wouldn't dare comparing war stories with anyone because I am too humble to do so.
Since I have been home aixhave felt a disconnect from society, as if I know the true nature of the world while everyone else lives oblivious to it. It is hard to describe but I have discovered through browsing the forums that many of you feel very much the same. I am married with children but feel that my wide doesn't understand. I live my life travelling down this dark road of guilt for things I have seen and done. It is hard to function normally but have become good at masking it.
I am embarrased to say I feel lonely in this existence as a result and have serious trust issues with people as a result. I have a handful of friends that although don't understand completely, accept my quirks and all and do provide a level of support. I have lost my faith and feel that my soul is traveling a lonely road that I know others travel but rarely see people on. PTSD feels very solitary. I have very little patience for people so avoid the stupid ones and prefer a more reclusive existance and am uncomfortable in public setttings and feel awkward socially.
Anyway, this looks like the right place. Hello fellow veterans.
Since I have been home aixhave felt a disconnect from society, as if I know the true nature of the world while everyone else lives oblivious to it. It is hard to describe but I have discovered through browsing the forums that many of you feel very much the same. I am married with children but feel that my wide doesn't understand. I live my life travelling down this dark road of guilt for things I have seen and done. It is hard to function normally but have become good at masking it.
I am embarrased to say I feel lonely in this existence as a result and have serious trust issues with people as a result. I have a handful of friends that although don't understand completely, accept my quirks and all and do provide a level of support. I have lost my faith and feel that my soul is traveling a lonely road that I know others travel but rarely see people on. PTSD feels very solitary. I have very little patience for people so avoid the stupid ones and prefer a more reclusive existance and am uncomfortable in public setttings and feel awkward socially.
Anyway, this looks like the right place. Hello fellow veterans.
