BlurryFace123
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As winter nears and December draws closer there is always a sense of dread as the trauma anniversary falls into place for what will now be six years ago. God, it feels like yesterday still, but not the point. This is the first year my abuser will have been out of jail, he got out about five months ago. I’ve had no issues, no contact, nothing! Just alot of stress over nothing. I have no evidence to believe he would try anything but the dread and anxiety is eating away at me. What if he has been keeping quiet so he could act on the anniversary date? What if he has just been slowly gathering up the information? What if he wants to finish what he started?
The winter months are hard anyways, with seasonal affective disorder and the anniversary - I’m scared this extra weight is going to cause another attempt/send off and I’ve been doing decent! I’ve really worked hard to get to this point but I already feel my resolve bending, I’m trying to reassure myself but every positive thought seems so fake and forced.
Am I being overly sensitive to the situation? Just too paranoid?
The winter months are hard anyways, with seasonal affective disorder and the anniversary - I’m scared this extra weight is going to cause another attempt/send off and I’ve been doing decent! I’ve really worked hard to get to this point but I already feel my resolve bending, I’m trying to reassure myself but every positive thought seems so fake and forced.
Am I being overly sensitive to the situation? Just too paranoid?
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