Paralysing Or Paralyzing

[Wagon]

Now I'm going to ask my shrink as well. I have unfortunately had it for the last 2 days. I just sit here in my rented room for hours and hours. Reading the forum helps, but not enough. Got to get outside and move. Beautiful weather here now. Waited bloody six months for the sun to come back and I just sit.

dissociation + depression + the little dead feeling inside Probably got something there Anthony.

Wagon

 

[anthony]

People dissociate without trauma... all the time. You hear it, you just don't put two and two together.

Whenever you hear someone say anything like, "Sorry, what was that, I zoned out", that is dissociation. You mentally lose capturing current time around you.

With trauma... you will find yourself saying that a lot more usually... something like "I was zoned out" and you spend lots of your days like that. That is dissociation, aka: a dissociative state.

People playing video games can become transfix to the game, and lose time and space around them, because they enter a dissociative state fixated to the game. People can literally walk into the room without them even knowing they are there, talk with them, etc... not even heard, as all senses are focused on the game and the rest is being dissociated from.

 

[Koala]

Thanks Wagon, pretty much on the button there with the depression.

Hey Koala,

I can sit there and think for hours. No alcohol, no herb, no nothing. Any thought in the direction of movement sets off panic, so I avoid panic. Wagon

A very good description Anthony, with the video games.

It is the extreme of being in your house with the blinds down to feel safe and I am sure most of us have been there.

The rawest of inate instincts take over, or if you like the child in me takes over..
i eat, drink, shit and sleep (if possible)....
I know the wife will yell at me if I shit the bed or the couch so I have no choice but to get up and go.

Koala, mmm on that, koala's can shit where they like right..

 

[Wagon]

OK. Well I've been out for 12 hours roaming the city of Stockholm. Absolutely one of the most beautiful cities in the world come springtime. So i feel I got some energy..... and then the other problem kicks in. When do I sleep. Had great sleep last 3 nights. Don't see it for at least 3 or 4 hours now. And so it goes. The vicious cycle.

Inability to do anything because of depression followed by the inability to sleep because of the opposite of depression.

f*cking lovely.

Wagon