Parents Told Me I Was A Mistake

[Deleted member 38644]

My parents always told me I was a mistake. my mom always told me she wish she could send me back where I came from and I'm not shit. My dad always told me the reason why I'm here is because my mom wouldn't leave him alone and that he gave her what she wanted. before my stepmom died she told my dad that I would be his downfall. I had to hide my entire life because I felt like I didn't belong. 23 years and I'm finally able to breathe I'm no longer trapped. I went through something that cause me to wakeup and it feels like you been reborn all over again. My mom said that I'm not shit, she never paid no kind of attention to me. I'm tired of people trying to buy me so they can go behind my back and take it from me. I'm so far behind in life I can cry. I felt like a mistake as they told me

 

[Issy]

I pressed the button by accident...I had to hide my entire life from these people because I felt...

Hey @Lauren Taylor you are no mistake. You have purpose, a destiny, originality that is uniquely connected to who you are. I know it can be extremely hurtful when parents who are meant to nurture you, choose to tear you down. I can completely relate because I too have a parent, my dad who has done so much to rip me apart literally and figuratively. Thankfully my mom is the reliable loving parent. I am glad you are at a place where you are taking control over your life and how you live it and who you allow to be in it. You are not alone, never have been and never will be.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Hey @Lauren Taylor you are no mistake. You have purpose, a destiny, originality that is...

Thank you so much it just hurts. My parents didn't come in to protect me someone else did. I always asked my self why didnt the State remove me when they came in. She always talked to me, even made decisions behind my back over my decisions as if it was her life. I lived my life completely blind as if I was in some kind of trance. My entire life felt like a mission. Something happened to me that caused me to wake completely up. I am completely isolated from my family as I been trying to do for so long. I have no complete feelings towards toxic situations. I talk to my mom and dad like complete strangers. My mom is like the next black widow. All she do is scheme. My dad is a sociopath and evil. I felt trapped. When I leave next month I'm going to park somewhere and cry because I will be so happy I am free

 

[Ronin]

You are no mistake, they are not even competent to make a commentary on the value of anyone, &

Congratz on your freedom :D

 

[Deleted member 38644]

You are no mistake, they are not even competent to make a commentary on the value of anyone, &

Congratz o...

Thank you I am just too happy. August I start school but have to leave next month to start preparing for my transition. I'm leaving this behind.

 

[Ronin]

Enjoy your schools :D You'll do awesome.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

My dad would always say if it wasn't for your momma not leaving me alone you wouldn't be here. I don't want nobody spending money on me to get me what I need all because it comes up for be needing to complete something. Teach me something along with it.. I found myself in so many times of abuse. I get jobs to work but never made enough to do what I needed to do. I had so much taken from me. I was never able to stand up on my own like I always wanted. It was always a failure as a product between two he used me as a target as to why their lives the way it is today. I get blame for a lot. My mom blames me for why she can't keep a man

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Enjoy your schools :D You'll do awesome.

I can't wait too...I can't wait to meet the new people. Can't wait to play baseball

 

[GwenDR]

I know you're not a mistake, 100%. <3

 

[Deleted member 38644]

I know you're not a mistake, 100%. <3

Thank you