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[Deleted member 28812]

The discussions on this boards me think *lol*.
I kn ow there is a number of people round here who had difficult birth stories.
My first birth did not go well (and the pregancy did not go well). While I was pregnant with the second I was very afraid and now I am afraid of birth number three (because we might want a third one day)... but that's only part of me.

Parts of me want to do it all over again. Right now please... that part of me is a risk taker and wants to mess with contraception - so that the saner part of me has top tell her to stop doing this because it is crazy.

So when people tell me they are sorry for that I am a bit puzzled because there is not need to feel sorry because a) I ended up with two beautiful boys and b) they do not know the feeling of triumph when your worst fears do not come trough *lol*.

My vet called me "brave" and that gave my ego a boost :)

If I did not have my hands full with my two boys I would do it all over again - right now. Has somebody been there?

 

[Sighs]

I agree that you were brave to go back for a second if your first did not go well. I only have one. Not the way I planned it, but... by the time I recovered emotionally from the birth the marriage had gone down the drain.

 

[Deleted member 28812]

:(

Not sure if I am brave or just halfway crazy *lol*. I am like "this sucked... gimme more of this".

I think that I would be bored if life would not suck from time to time *lol*... and if my guy would stop having isuues and stop doing things that annoy me I would be bored too... I just had that ephiphany.

Men without issues are... boring. *lol* Mine is a challenge.

 

[Deleted member 28812]

BTW do you talk about it with other women? Some women I do know do like a horrible birth olympics.

"Mine has been worse" - "No, mine sucked more". I sometimes do feel like I want to engage in this because I want to talk about it (and maybe also therapeutic as I find it difficult to put some things into words *lol*) but then I feel like this would be unfair to all the women going to give birth in the future. I know that most births go well and pregnant women worry about everything.

 

[Sighs]

Lol - I NEVER talk about my birth experience in front of a pregnant woman! What's the point of terrifying them? I mention the brief summary sometimes, but have told very few people the gory details.

 

[Deleted member 28812]

The point would be being able to participate in the communication.

Where I am from it is so usual for mothers to discuss this sort of thing... sometimes in front of women who will have (another) child soon. I hated people doing this both times I was pregnant.

Well, yes, it could be the best option to be smarter than other people and not engage in this kind of conversation.