Peppermint And Chilli

[Jimmy1]

Being serious here. If you are having a rough time, sometimes its not good to read these forum posts.
Take some time out and go fishing, or get a punching bag and hang it in your garage, or play a video game like tennis or something mundane. As I have said before, I play a cheap game for the PC called Plants V Zombies. It chills me.
But don't come back to the forum till you feel better, as there are lots of depressing and sad things on here.

Just my thoughts.

Hope you all feel better soon.

Jimmy

 

[willis williams]

I am taking it easy on here but it relaxes me some to be on here. I finally have a Dr. appointment in the mourning after they cancelled twice and I will talk to her about what is going on. I thaught the meds I am on were working good I don't know what happened. My return aniversary is this month I don't know if this is a factor since this is the first in a long time that I have sober. I haven't touched a drop since last July before that it was of and on sometimes 2 months straight drinking every day with short brakes and before that it was all the time. So I guess I will just see I refuse to go back to drinking maybe later a beer or two but never back to the hard drinking. Oh well it is my burden to carry and I'll get it done one way or another. TEX

 

[Jan-pattern]

Tex, just wanted to say I'm bloody impressed at you - I guess from what you've posted the last few days you aren't feeling too impressed with yourself, but looking at it from the outside, what you've just put in that post there is bloody brilliant.
You've been sober since last summer and approaching your return anniversary still sober, bloody hell you should be standing four inches taller, mate, in my opinion!
It's such a friend at the time, isn't it, good old blind-drunk haze? And you're doing this now without that crutch, you're standing tall, standing on your own two feet. It's not all suddenly perfect, but by God you're doing it. Your new baby on the way is gonna be the first of your kids to be held by a sober Daddy rather than a Daddy who can't quite focus... that's quite something.

Best of luck with the Doc and everything. I'm really impressed with you. Fought my own fight with the hard liquor, and I know the little devil who sits on your shoulder murmuring... and you're a brave and strong man, I reckon. I think you should cut yourself a little slack and be proud of achieving this.

Jan

 

[wife of]

Well said Jan,well done with the sobriety Tex.

 

[willis williams]

Thanks, the Doc changed my meds a little but says that because I went so long without serious treatment since 1994 till last summer that I got a long way to go. Stupid stuburn streak got me in trouble again. The VA did not even like to call it PTSD in the 90s so getting treatment was hard. I am happy to be sober it was july 4th to be exact on the quit time. I hope that I can find some more relief from my head wether it is meds or therapy cause right now it is like a big cloud. I also need to get some grammer lessons so I can learn to spell. TEX

 

[Koala]

Jimmy,
yes good point about staying away from the forums when feeling really down. Sadly I have started to use it as a bit of a cruch. On the sessions and spice forum I almost use it as a blog spot, a diary of my treatments and what was discussed, this helps reinforce and also helps to get things off my chest. I almost hope nobody responds to anything in there.

Maybe Jimmy, we could have a BAD DAY Thread.. Just a place to smash thoughts down.
My therapist asked me to write it down on a peice of paper and then shred or burn it so I could not go back over it again and again. Not sure how it would work, but it could be a spoiler alert place, when you are really in the thick of it, you can go in there and really cut loose. Others would not to venture in unless they were fully prepared. Just a thought.

Tex,
spelling is so overrated... mmm over rated.. My wife is a stickler for grammer and spelling, me I am lucky to spell Wednesday the same way twice in one day. I think as long as people get the drift of what I am saying who cars how I spell.

I got my first meds today, was very nervious and didn't even know how to approach the doc.. He basically ran out the back and said we have these new meds, very quick uptake, you should notice something within 5 days.

Cymbalta
60mg Duloextine

Took one at 10:30 ish and by 4:00 this arvo I was feeling nausious, called the wife to come and get me and went home, back on the couch. Not on the couch for PTSD but for feeling like I was going to be physically sick.

Will take one tomorrow and see how I go, the side affects have me a bit concerned though. Anxiety for one, man I have enough of this without taking a drug to give more..

Koala

 

[willis williams]

Koala, most of my meds make me nausious. It is a daily thing I even take meds to help but I know that the meds are tarring up my stomach. I hope to hear about this faster acting cymbalta. I seem to be i a cycle were I take one med to counter act the other med. I hope you don't end up in that cycle because it seems never ending. My mood stabilizer bring me down to much so I take an antidepressant to bring me back up. It is a bastard trying to juggle the dosage not to go to far one way. With my other meds in combination I just can't get a break from the nausia and other side affect. The worst one for my relationship is I just have about 0 desire for sex and with a pregnant woman they want to feel wanted and I find myself kinda resenting her. I know it is not her fault so I try never to show my loss of intrest to her but I know she sees it. I really hope that this one works for you so you don't have to play the russian rulet that many of use have with meds. TEX

 

[Jimmy1]

Same mate, I am awaiting this back surgery and am on 240 mg a day of codeine. The Cymbalta says it helps with nerve pain which is exactly what I have. So rather than taking 200 mg of Zoloft and 240 mg of Codeine and 15 mg of Avanza, I might be able to just have one.

I am hoping to have my surgery within a month anyway, so maybe no. I will check it out though thanks.

Jimmy