Performance Review

[JOE54880]

I'm a veteran with ptsd, and recently had performance review, where not a single good thing was said. I have previously asked my supervisors if they be willing to watch a video on YouTube to understand some of the challenges I face. Yet, they never did anything, and put it all back onto me. So I just started keeping to myself, now was told I'm not a team player, etc etc. The whole thing that hurt my performance review are 3 different incidents, of saying stuff I shouldn't have, but im.not violent at all. Which all occured following consecutive nights of very poor sleep, with all 3 incidents occurring with first couple hours if work following day.
I have asked for accommodations, and the doctor requested that I be allowed to work from home during these stretches, as I can generally tell when I'm getting to the point of things boiling over. Yet, I was only offered a flexible schedule, for reason that are quite bogus.
On one of the last incidents, following I was called into bosses office, and was essentially being egged on, with my boss saying repeatedly I'm angry, you want to hit me. After that continuing, I finally daidvim.not angry, was trying to hold back tears, so this has made me apprehensive in most dealingo with my supervisor.
What can I do?

 

[Intrepid]

You are not the only one with PTSD. Co-workers have varying degrees of issues. Making accommodations for you means they have to admit there's a problem. They may not have PTSD, but they may have had to deal with someone other than you that has.

You'd think after all the attention to PTSD people would begin to understand.

However, I've had to focus on my own issues. I had to get out of the Marines after 11 years because I couldn't stop responding in anger. I had no clue what I was angry about.

My problems were due to non-combat PTSD. If your PTSD is primarily from being in a war zone there's a sister website you might want to check out. Link Removed

Welcome to the forum!

 

[Powder]

Anger is what others are seeing from you. But that's not what's driving this thing. Hyperarousal. Inability to calm. The body is jacked up to 20 times the adrenals of the average human. That's a hellof a lot more than an ordinary person can understand.

It's probably easier for him to understand being a woman than PTSD, or something that he's had lots of exposure to. There is no motive for a non-PTSD not affected (that they are aware of) to "get it."

We have to adapt to them, first and foremost. Only the inner circle who chooses adapts to us.

 

[Biz]

Your boss's meeting with you trying to egg you on was completely inappropriate. I've been through a workplace hell; I filed accommodations. I was eventually terminated; I'm in the beginnings of a suit.

I don't generally offer advice but.... If you're not attached to the work/workplace, I'd say to start applying elsewhere. They clearly aren't understanding what's going on and the issues could continue to build. I now work in an amazing place with a really kind supervisor. She's been really responsive to me even when I'm having a bad day. It makes a world of difference.