falling_wave
Platinum Member
I wanted to share with you all about something I have been doing for therapy that has made me see quick and notable progress. I've always been the type of person to try to make sessions more productive by various ways of preparing whether that be email, giving myself pre session "think time", Journaling and reviewing enteries, etc. My therapist told me about two months ago that she is retiring and we need to cut back on sessions. It seriously freaked me out and triggered abandonment stuff but...it made me develop coping skills to still manage to get what I need.
Everyday I was and pretty much still do want and wish I could talk to her so I went into the notes on my phone and wrote down what I would want to say to her each day in short bullet points. Then I though about the significance or importance about wanting to tell her that. It was pretty simple but I have identified a big trigger with people I feel are trying to control me, remembering a past trauma that leads to my frequent dissociation on the road, and a lot of noticing subtle outward but major internal changes in how I see myself and my level of hope. I want to share that with her too. I definitely still miss her ALL the time and have fears of losing her but I feel like for the first time in a long time I can actually see that I'm living a better version of me than even last year. Even in our weeks apart meetings I have bullet point list to refresh myself before I walk in and because I have identified meaning it is less of a report about the week and more of an exploration about deeper stuff and for that I am thankful. I hope that might help some of you!
Everyday I was and pretty much still do want and wish I could talk to her so I went into the notes on my phone and wrote down what I would want to say to her each day in short bullet points. Then I though about the significance or importance about wanting to tell her that. It was pretty simple but I have identified a big trigger with people I feel are trying to control me, remembering a past trauma that leads to my frequent dissociation on the road, and a lot of noticing subtle outward but major internal changes in how I see myself and my level of hope. I want to share that with her too. I definitely still miss her ALL the time and have fears of losing her but I feel like for the first time in a long time I can actually see that I'm living a better version of me than even last year. Even in our weeks apart meetings I have bullet point list to refresh myself before I walk in and because I have identified meaning it is less of a report about the week and more of an exploration about deeper stuff and for that I am thankful. I hope that might help some of you!
