Hi everyone,
I am realizing that in therapy I fall back to sort of like a child way of communicating (not voice or tone) but in reasoning or thinking or even elaborating. I think (I am exploring this now), I fall back to sort of primary processing where I am much more closer to my needs than the therapist is so often I can symbolize my dreams much faster and in depth. Or I can translate a body pain to a feeling...rather than going on and on cognitively. I can cut through a lot of more shit if I stay that loose associative level. Little too lose sometimes!
I am realizing my therapist function for me is more or less like my logic, critical or even probably secondary processing and I use her to solve problems with me. I have been resisting this in my mind and was experiencing anxiety. But now I am finding myself in loose position (less anxious) if I think I am sort of relating to her in regressive manner and I could play with it and learn who I am rather than trying to stay up on top of things.
Cause I have the tendencies to over think and I am not super experienced in therapy, I wonder if others feel similar things or could articulate better than me. Previously I was thinking maybe I was dissociating and I think still I am probably to break down this way but yet I am probably becoming not so dissociated to catch up.
Any input or feedback is appreciated.
Ps. I do not find thinking primary processing pathological at all - actually I find it better in relationships - more authentic than rationalizing...but that is where I am operating from. So in essence, I am not looking for this is wrong or right more like others' experiences if this resonates.
I am realizing that in therapy I fall back to sort of like a child way of communicating (not voice or tone) but in reasoning or thinking or even elaborating. I think (I am exploring this now), I fall back to sort of primary processing where I am much more closer to my needs than the therapist is so often I can symbolize my dreams much faster and in depth. Or I can translate a body pain to a feeling...rather than going on and on cognitively. I can cut through a lot of more shit if I stay that loose associative level. Little too lose sometimes!
I am realizing my therapist function for me is more or less like my logic, critical or even probably secondary processing and I use her to solve problems with me. I have been resisting this in my mind and was experiencing anxiety. But now I am finding myself in loose position (less anxious) if I think I am sort of relating to her in regressive manner and I could play with it and learn who I am rather than trying to stay up on top of things.
Cause I have the tendencies to over think and I am not super experienced in therapy, I wonder if others feel similar things or could articulate better than me. Previously I was thinking maybe I was dissociating and I think still I am probably to break down this way but yet I am probably becoming not so dissociated to catch up.
Any input or feedback is appreciated.
Ps. I do not find thinking primary processing pathological at all - actually I find it better in relationships - more authentic than rationalizing...but that is where I am operating from. So in essence, I am not looking for this is wrong or right more like others' experiences if this resonates.